There is a boy that I teach, he seems suspicious of my weakness, of my crimes, i hate him, he knows something somehow, i could fail him but he is very good at the subject, im could suggest that he not come anymore but he doesnt really does nothing wrong, that would make everyone like him suspect something.
He wn be a problem later i know n i wn have to have a plan, to get rid of him, so that he wouldn't interfere, sounds like i have to kill him, but i dont like getting my hands dirty and im too weak to do something like that.
I miss my wife a lot, i would like to spend more time with her, i miss her skin, her smell, her warmth, her love, her caresses, her gaze... i miss every last part of his body and soul.
I guess it wouldnt be so bad not to take the night shift just for today and spend the night with her, i could go home early at least once a month, thats what i wn do go home early today, i could call her but she likes the surprises.
Everyone goes home, now I do it too, today i wouldn't take that turn. I got home, I put the key in the lock and opened it, there was my beautiful Sally, making some dinner in the kitchen, she was a little scared when she saw me, but then she ran happily to hug me, i hug her by the waist, put my biefcase on the floor and spin her around, when his feet touch the ground, we separate a little and he gives me a soft kiss on the lips
- I love you - i tell her
- I love you too - she answers me
When we started dinner, i realized that i was consumed by the desire to continue with my nightly routine, to eat human flesh, Iicouldn't take it anymore, i tried to calm down, continue eating and drink wine, but that didn't help much... i looked at her and thought about it for just one minute, of course i didnt even try, i just thought about it, how could i think of something like that? This was not a good idea, I dont want to hurt Sally.
I decided that once a month i would skip classes to be with her and then i would go to the night shift, that is much safer.
We finished to eating and we chatted for a while longer, she asked me every so often if I was okay, I told her that I was just tired, in the end we went to sleep.
It was the longest night ive had in the last 20 years.
When we went to bed she fell asleep almost instantly, i, on the other hand, remained awake for at least another hour, i wasnt thinking about anything specific, i just continued there, empty, turning over and over to my previous thoughts.
