MY LIFE( Book 3)

CH 6

I spent most of my day thinking, Andy dropped me at the library and I've been sitting thinking instead of studying.I don't understand how my mom can pretend that everything is okay while it's not, how did we get here because what I saw is not normal where did the pain go? how is she fine that's what I don't understand because what the hell!it's weird. my brothers interrogated me yesterday and I didn't like it because of that they think that I'm crazy and I'm not ,so I sent my mom a text that I will not be joining them for dinner tonight but then she called me to tell me that I need to be there for what I don't know because I'm sick of the pretending they do in that house in as much as I love my family it's full of drama. Been sitting in the library since around 1:00 p.m. it's now almost 5:30 p.m. and I have to go home since my mom wants to see me,so I must be at home and I don't want to go there with how things are not okay plus having to face Benedict I don't know ,yes I'm calling him Benedict and not uncle because he did things to my mother,don't like him anymore, my mom does not deserve that kind of treatment. I'm on my way home now in the uber,watching the video that is talking about my mom and my dad having children together I don't like it but anyway I just got home and I didn't see cars in the drive way, I'm thinking where's my mom but here I am facing Benedict. "Kim Kim, back so soon?" He asked with that everyday smile of his. generally we talk like that but now I don't know if I should pretend "where's my mom?I thought I left her here"i ask him as I get in and put my bag on the couch "oh she's probably upstairs,I'm on my way out kiddo ,sharp" I look at him almost walking out"wait, can we talk?"he stops "yeah sure ,what's up kiddo?"his asking so innocently, he had all of us fooled" I give it to you for this perfect cover up, behind this innocent ,gentle,kind man is an abuser waiting to choke my mother to death" well that's a statement I didn't see myself making,he looks appalled "w-what are you talking about?and who are you talking to like that?why would I abuse my wife?"hmm his face screams innocent but inner him mxm"i saw you slap her this morning, I saw everything you did, my brothers may not believe me but best know my father will hear abo-..."well he cut me off by rushing to my side,next thing I see his hand midway,did I not duck yoh"you don't know what you are starting Kimberly"he warns as I duck and dive just so that he doesn't get his hands on me,"finally the mask falls off huh, you are just like the rest of them , hiding behind a facade "I shout as I duck lol shit ,I tripped by the corner of the couch since I was duck and diving around the couch, he gets to me and pulls me by my jersey ," w-wait pull me nicely" see the difference between my mom and I, I don't get scared easily ,here he is buffing and puffing in my face "lil girl I will Hurt you , don't try me" I smirk "I'll love to see you try" well shouldn't have said that cause he literally got more angry in a split second, I saw him about to punch me now that almost made me pee myself "YEYI! I dare you to touch her, touch her and see what I'm made of"shouts the voice of my mom,well thanks to my mom who does not sound pleased at all"what are you trying to do?get your hands off my daughter!"she said that pushing his hands off my jersey ,he still looks extremely pissed though."were you seriously about to punch my child Benedict?"she questions, he huffs and walks out mxm,she sighs" and wena! Are you crazy?''she shouts, Hayi she can't be mad at me" are you?mama that man literally beats you,you clearly know how to stand up for us but not yourself" I comment" Kimberly watch your tone"she warns"you are not me, one punch from his hand would have sent you to ICU,do i look like I have the strength to deal with your father!?"she's mad mad at this point "we are shouting at this point "you would know how his punch feels akere you like it mama, are you not tired?how long have you been his punching bag?how long are you going to keep being that loser!?" I shout, that will earn me a slap from her one of these days,i guess not today, her anger vanished. " I think it's best if you go to your dad's house for the rest of the week. I will come fetch you next week neh. I love you my baby" that is code for we are done with this topic" I'm going to tell dad" I mention,since she was going to the direction of her room,she stopped and looked my way" so that he does what? Finish me off!? Sabatla gontena Kimberly. Stay in your lane and be a child, if you have forgotten who the parent is here, don't make me remind you. I'm not your age!"well her tone is scary but she's my mom,never laid a hand on me so shame she won't do nothing " I'm still going to tell him, what you're doing isn't how to live. I still need you in my life, my siblings still need you. After what I saw today trust and believe I will leave no stone unturned until you wake the hell up and stop living in your head. That man is hurting you daily. " she sighs" you won't understand baby, don't try to. You shouldn't have seen what you saw, I'm not entirely innocent in all of this. Cut him some slack. "I shake my head no " as my child please listen to me as your mother. Let's keep this between us. I promise I'm good." I just look at her, akho hope here shame.she is so adamant on living like this."I'm going to tell my dad and Granma. Maybe just maybe you will see that this is not life" I turn to the couch to get my bag to leave,I hear her sigh. Well I do need to get my license, ubering everyday isn't so nice.