I was 20.
My heart still beats your name.
Although you made me feel useless.
Although your words have hurt me thousands of times.
I wonder why, can't I get rid of you from my heart?
I pushed away my feelings,
lying to myself about what had been hurting me.
Even this year,
I still wished you a happy birthday.
I would never forget yours,
I was too excited to;
Helloo!! Happy birthday Mr Doctor 🥳🥳 Happy 21 birthday! I'm sorry if I've ever offended you or if you think talking to me is annoying.. May you lead a happy and successful life! Andd may you achieve whatever it is that you want with ease! Congrats again on being 21!! hshshs dah tua 😂 pray for what's best! Don't give up 💪
Though,
You replied to me less and less.
As if you were trying to get rid of me.
And maybe you did.
Maybe you were trying to get rid of me after all.
You were my Sun.
Your word hurt me.
It haunts me.
Even in my sleep.
Every day I woke up being afraid of your degradation.
You made me feel useless.
Once you told me,
it would be better if I ended my life.
You might have said that in the spur of the moment.
But that word broke me.
Even today.
.
...
You never replied to my text anymore.
So I never tried to reach out anymore.
