The Only Rider

Reality hits

"Kane? Are you alright?" Han asked in a different voice then usual. "Kane?" He continued then like a flash I was back at the warehouse in Bangkok staring at the camera man and Sae who both had a worried look upon their faces. "Kane!" He said again breaking me of my trance. "Huh!" I said. "Are you ok? Your crying" the camera man asked. "Crying? Me?" I said surprised. "Yeah your crying are you ok? Do you need a break?" Sae asked as she approached me with a handkerchief. She wiped my tears before looking at the camera man. "Lets stop for lunch" she said and he agreed. I left back to my trailer accompanied by Sae still in nothing but the boxers as my fans lined the street outside the gate trying to get pictures of me. Once inside Sae handed me a robe to wear and sat down to order food. "Do you want wings? Pizza or a sub?" She asked me. "I was crying?" I said in English as I sat down at my vanity. "Yes you were are you ok?" She asked as she stood up and approached me. Looking at Sae you would never guess she was trans male to female. She had long pink and purple ombre hair paired with her brown eyes that rested behind her dark blue framed glasses. She had a double D cup size and her adams apple wasn't visible at all. Pair that with her curvy body frame that was visible in her skin tight jeans and blue heels she looked just like any other woman on the street. "I....I don't know" I said. "What happened?" She asked me as she leaned against my vanity table. "I was lost in thought....or rather memory" I said. "What did you remember?" She asked. "My childhood...before I became a model. I remembered my older brother's proposal to his wife Kalisa and....I remembered Lee" I said. "Who's Lee?" She asked. "He was my childhood friend. He moved away when I was 13....I haven't seen him since" I said.

"Crush?" She asked me. "On Lee? I....I don't know truly" I said. "You were 13 when you saw him last right? Your hormones were forming then have you had any girlfriends?" Sae asked. "Girlfriends? No never. I never wanted them" I said. "How about boyfriends?" She asked. "No..." I said. "Ah ha! You didn't say you never wanted any though! Are you gay Kane?" Sae asked. "I truly don't know" I said just then my phone rang and I saw it was my sister Yuli facetiming me. "Kaneeeeeeeee" she cried as I picked up. "Hiiiiii" I said putting on a face that surprised Sae. "What's wrong?" She said picking up on the fake smile. "Nothing" I said still trying to fake it. "Lier....come on tell me" Yuli said. I sighed and started to cry again. "Oh Kane....are you homesick?" Yuli asked. "I don't know....." I said and handed the phone to Sae because I was about to break down. "Hi my name is Sae I'm your brother's manager. He is upset right now....." She said. "Manager or girlfriend because damn your pretty!!!!" Yuli said. "Thank you but no his manager. He is currently at a photoshoot but mid photoshoot he started crying. He told me he remembered a proposal to a Kalisa saying she's your brothers wife and he remembered Lee" Sae said. "Lee.....oh my I haven't heard that name in a while. He was Kane's best friend from 6 to 13 when he moved away....it messed Kane up a lot. He was in so much pain afterwards even tried suicide did he tell you that?" Yuli said. "No never!" Sae said as she looked at me tears forming in her eyes.

I just laid my head down on the vanity. "Lung! Lung Kane!" I heard my nephew call in Thai. I picked my head up and smiled as best I could as Sae handed my phone back to me. "Hi Axel. How's my favorite nephew" I said. "Im your only nephew!" He said. "Your point?" I said as Yuli showed him. "Uncle Kane can I play with your old bike?" He asked as my sister showed her husband placing it on the ground in front of him. "They kept it?" I said surprised. "Its mom and dad did you think they would throw it away?" Yuli said. "Yes actually" I said. "He loves that thing always wants to play with it when we come visit but mom always tells him no" She said. "Its quite special to me. However I have my own grown up bike now....he can have it...." I said. "Hear that Axel Lung Kane said you can have it" Yuli said in Thai. "He just has to take good care of it" I said back. "I will Lung Kane thank you!" Axel said as he got on my old childhood bike and rode around the driveway with it. "He's so cute" I said in English. "He really is and he loves you a lot. We all do. Mom goes on and on to her friends how her youngest is a model. I'm surprised they haven't gotten fed up with her" Yuli laughed. "I hope he meets a friend he can ride that with and grows up happy with" I said. "Kane...Lee's dad died recently. I saw it on the news. He was shot. They didn't move far. About 2 hours away" Yuli said. "He is dead?.....good he deserved it!" I said rather coldly that caught both Yuli and Sae off guard.

  "Kane? What happened when they moved? What did you see?" Yuli asked as she walked into the house. "Lee.....he.....he had bruises all over his face......burn marks....his dad was abusing him.....I wanted to save him...I shouted for mom so she could see it too....maybe even convince his dad he could stay with us....but before she reached the door Lee was gone..." I said. "That's why you chased after him that day....oh Kane! If only you would have told us! Mom would have called the cops on him!" Yuli said. "I was scared if someone called the cops on him he'd kill Lee......"I said. "I see.....tell you what come home for the funeral maybe Lee will be there and you can reconnect" she said. "I......I can't....I have work still" I said. "Im sure PD wouldn't mind Kane want me to call her?" Sae asked and I went silent for a moment. Sae took my silence as a yes and called PD Tanna. "Sae! Good timing I was about to call you is Kane done with the photoshoot?" I heard PD Tanna asked in Thai as my sister listened with me. "No not yet we stopped for lunch but I have a question" Sae said. "Well when he finishes I just received a call from Wendy Williams she wants Kane on her show from some fashion report of some kind as well as an interview" PD Tanna said. "Who is she?" Sae asked confused. "Wendy Williams is a tv show host she's quite well known in my hometown" I said in Thai. "Yes she is a true New York icon and wants to talk to him" PD Tanna said. "When? Because I am getting slightly homesick" I said to which my sister and my mother who walked over silently started to tear up. "As soon as possible she has left her schedule open to you" PD Tanna said. "I'll leave as soon as I finish here schedule it for Thursday, gives me time to fly out and spend time with my family before working" I said as I looked at the calendar. "I see good thinking should we get together gifts?" PD Tanna asked.

"Sure thing get my summer calendar ready for Wendy Williams and her audience. Prepare my ASAVA posters for my family please I want to sign them all too" I said. "Your such a caring young man Kane your mother raised an amazing man" PD Tanna said. "Thank you" I said. "Swadeeka!!!! (Goodbye female version)" PD Tanna said. "Swadeeka" Sae said. "Swadeekurp (goodbye male version)" I said and PD Tanna hung up. "So New York it is. I'll book the tickets" Sae said. "I would like to go alone Sae please" I said. "Why?" She asked. "Its my hometown I want to be free" I said. "Besides I'm scared for you being Trans its still quite difficult for you over there I wouldn't want anything to happen to my favorite manager" I said. "I know how bad it is for me over there Kane you forget I'm American too. It wont stop me from going home to visit" Sae said. "Right....sorry...." I said. "As for your freedom you'll have it I won't be on you about anything except Wendy Williams" Sae said. "I wouldn't want it any other way" I smiled. "I can't wait to see you son" mom said surprising me. "Maë!!!! (Mom)" I said surprised. "Kane are you alright to continue?" The camera man asked in Thai as he knocked on my trailer door. "Go to work I can't wait to see you. I love you" mom said. "I love you too" I said and hung up. "Im ready!" I called. "Oh....shit....we didn't order food....." I said. "Its fine I'll order it while you finish up we will eat and head out" Sae said. "Pizza please" I said. "You got it" she said and I took my robe back off. Leaving my trailer my fans screams drew my attention and I waved to them excitedly.