5 years

octobers pov

I walked home after school listening to Jessie murph day dreaming, l was also thinking about how l wish chase had  a better school career it's not like lm insanely popular but it would be nice if he was not bullied every day.

I have been working up the guts to ask chase out but the problem is lm scared he doesn't feel the same way, l have had my heart broken so many times because guys mainly just use me for my body but it's different with chase He just gets me ya know?

As l got home, l heard my mom talking about work stuff. l usually don't get involved because it's really none of my business. After greeting my parent,
I took a banana from the kitchen and walked up the stairs to my loft bedroom it wasent to far from the lounge, but l am lucky it's soundproof.

I opened my phone to see a text about 10 missed calls from chase, he hardly ever calls now lm worried, l opened the text to see a suicide note, my heart dropped it was sent 5 minutes ago. There might still be time.....

I ran out the house and got in my moms car l dont have my license yet but l don't care l need to get to him, tears are streaming down my face as l race down the street l can't lose him l just can't l haven't even told him l love him do l love him l don't know yet but right now l can't possibly imagine a life without him.

I called his mom as l got in the car and she said she's on her way as l arrive at his home l ran straight inside ignoring the calls of his guards l sprinted straight up the stairs to his room he wasent there l ran into his bathroom but the door was locked so l kicked it down, my heart stopped when l saw him laying there still cold lifeless, l ran up to his body feeling his pulse but nothing was there.

I dropped down to my knees holding him crying my eyes out he's gone he's really gone l knew he had problems with his depression but l never knew it would get this far to the point my love would actually do this l looked over to my left and saw an empty bottle of sleeping pills making me sob harder and harder my eyes burning from the tears my heart aching l keep repeating its my fault over and over in my head because l should have answered his calls l should have!

His mom came running up the stairs screaming when she saw me and him she dropped to the floor sobbing "l should have know" she screamed her body shaking with her rough sobbs while silent sobbs escaped my lips.....