oblivious // ivantill

• SEVEN

Till POV//

Those yellow orbs of hers are only what I looked at the entire time, If she didn't understand my message then I think I should tell her myself... I've been wanting to express myself for awhile.

I quickly got my things on the stage and went back to the music club booth, placing my guitar back in it's case and ran off to find Mizi. I smiled to myself happily hoping Mizi would feel the same, to feel reciprocated is what'll make me the happiest guy in the world... I ran around the plaza of booths, food stands, school tees and such — No pink hair in sight.

I thought about how Mizi and Sua always wandered off somewhere distant so I could assume near the outside buildings, and hell I was right.. I felt unlawful spying on the two but I was curious —

Sua was catching her breath alongside Mizi, they just smiled and giggled together — the girl took the others hands and held them.

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"Mizi.. there's been something I've been meaning to ask you."

"I-is that so? You can tell me anything.."

Sua bit her lip softly as she stared at Mizi, that curiosity was so adorable — She knew whatever she had to say, reciprocated or not — Mizi would always stay by her side.

"I'm in love with you Mizi, it's okay if you don't feel—"

"I love you too Sua!! I.. I'm so glad you like me back, let's be together forever — okay?"

The two girls bashfully smiled and hugged each other for what seemed like eternity . . .

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I couldn't process what just happened in the moment, I felt myself shatter internally. I started to just run, run away from this! My ears heard correctly, there was no joke or prank whatsoever.. I ran and ran as far as I could.

I found some random tree far from everything else, far from the MUSICfest / far from the school / far from anything really in the school gates. I needed some time to think.. to mentally recover.

I don't hate Sua, she's a lovely person — in fact maybe it was the best choice for her to be with Mizi. I should've seen the obvious signs.. i'm so OBLIVIOUS! I felt myself cry, burning droplets running down my face as I just weeped. I feel so pathetic, especially since i'm a high schooler now! I shouldn't cry over stupid matters like this... but, I really loved Mizi.

Wait a second.. loved? Is my mind suggesting I moved on already? now that's a new record, I usually can never get over things THAT quickly... but on the bright side — i'm happy for them, they deserve it. I guess the only thing I can accept is that It was great loving Mizi — I smiled through my endless streams, sniffling.

I thought back on my sketchbooks of her, the silly keychain I bought her, the song(s) I made for her. Man was I stupidly obsessed... I groaned at myself, leaning back on the tree as I just let the breeze cool off my sadness.

I closed my eyes for just a few minutes — I heard some footsteps coming along my way, I opened them as I only stared at the person walking towards me.

Ivan. I suddenly felt ashamed to look at him, I was reminded that he told me to watch his performance when I assed my attention to him. I don't know what to say to him right now, especially since I've been practically rude to him most of the time.. why does he even bother to hang out with me?

"Mind if I join you?"

"Go ahead."

. . . .

I just exhaled silently, staring at the MUSICfest / school from a distance. Maybe things are ought to change from now on, I can probably handle it.

"Hey Till, I got you something."

Ivan handed me a red flower keychain —

"Thank you..."

"Mhm."

"Why do you always hang out with me? I'm a loser, someone you shouldn't be around with."

"Why not? I guess I find you... alluring, I want to get to know you more."

"Y-you sound like a girl! ugh... but, yeah whatever, I want to know you more too..."

Ivan immediately perked up when I said this, his smile wide open as his snag tooth is shown — he looks like some puppy..

"So why are you out here?"

"Oh.. um.. I guess you can say the person I like.. has someone else now.."

Honestly I didn't even know if Ivan knew of my crush about Mizi or not, but it doesn't matter if he knows or not. I just needed someone to hear me out.. anyone.

"So your coping... I can relate."

I turned my head to face Ivan, him? out of all people? having love problems? now that's something I need to know.

Ivan continued —

"The person I like is quite unaware of my feelings, you see.. I always try getting their attention by the smallest things or even find an excuse to be with them, so far — I haven't been noticed."

"You must've fallen for some idiot then! I'm surprised the girl hasn't acknowledged your feelings."

"A girl.. yeah, quite oblivious too."

"Damn, you really are struggling..."

"I suppose, I don't mind at all... I'm really in love."

Well seems like Ivan will be trying his hardest, I hope his crush tends to notice him at some point or later, it'd be a total bummer if they never do.

The announcement speakers went off, announcing the winners at the main stage area — I got up.

"That was the speakers, let's get going."

I helped Ivan up from his feet, our hands holding each other for balance so the other doesn't fall.