DESOLATION. || A FE2 AU.

|| Do I regret it? ||

"Did I do something wrong?"

His last words.

Was it worth it anyway?

Sometimes I want my mind to be fixed.

But will it ever even happen?

I always act on my urges.

My mind.

Never my heart.

Why am I like this?

Why did I develop this?

Is this even considered a sickness?

A disorder?

Whatever it was.

I want it out.

I'm not a cruel person.

But people keep on telling me that.

I'm not trying to be bad.

Why was I even born this way?

Maybe if I had a better life.

I wouldn't have done that.

Now because of my mind..

I have blood on my hands.

I never meant to do that.

Now everyone will come after me.

They'll do something bad.

To me.

Like how people did back then.

Was it because of my behavior?

My looks?

Species?

The way I stand?

The way I talk?

What is it, truly?

If the others find out..

Who knows what the others will do to me.

If only I could turn back time.

If only I had a bit more control over myself.

I wouldn't have done this.

I wouldn't have killed him.

Why did I even do it?

Why did I act upon my urges instead of resisting?

I hate this.

I hate me.