Fighting For Euphoria

2. Reality Sinks In

Note- This is the episode where Sai meet Virat for the first after her accident and they hold hands. Discussion further in end notes.

Sai POV

As Sai gains consciousness, find Virat's aai once again by her bedside. Looking younger then I saw her last. Is she is in the same nightmare again? 

A calender in the room catches my eye, it is of 2021.

Was it not dream? They really told me it's 2021. Was I in some kind of limbo previously? Coma? Have I gone mentality unstable... the years I lived was that my imagination... But it was felt so real. I had Vinayak and I had Savi. Didn't I? Didn't I had them? Am I crazy, finally going senile in death?

A touch on my cheeks startled me out of panic and turmoil, to find Aai consoling me, me also not realising I had started to cry. Tears making my eyes blur.  Aai pleading me to calm down. "Sai."

"Bada...shant ho jao..shh...why're you crying ha? See all it's ok... you're okay...stop crying or your head will start paining." But how can I tell her it's not my head but my heart that hurts. What's is not okay, nothing at all seems to make sense to her and I think I have gone mad..

"Everything is going to be alright ok. Shant bada... Do you want water?... No? Do you want me to call the doctor. Are you in pain?" But sobs won't stop, there is something so painful in breathing. 

Nothing is right. I don't know why I'm here, is it another punishment? 

"Should I call for Virat?" Aai desperately asks finally, noticing that Sai worsening her health by crying.

Yes, I nod. Receiving some kind of reply for the first time, she rushes out of the room.

But I could only think of Virat. Clearly remembering the last moments we both shared on the plane before dying. Did he die and I didn't but why? Was I all alone again but where is here? Just as my lungs starts to burn that when I realise my breath coming short I'm gasping. I'm having a panic attack.

I didn't hear the door opening, or the feet rapidly approaching her bedside. Only focusing on my thoughts, trying to find my breath.

Someone takes her in their arms. Arms so familiar...Strong arms that had supported her through so many falls and even in her last breath. Virat... 

Virat. He didn't die. He's alive.. Speaking to me so softly, "Sai, Calm down, here breath with me. Follow my heartbeat. Breath with me... follow." As he takes my trembling hand and place it on his chest. His heart is beating. So alive, just like me. Breathing as her hands clutch onto his shirt. 

This wasn't afterlife, we aren't dead.

He's with me, here. Whatever this was. I'm not alone.

Sai find her panic receding, as she tries to follow Virat's breaths matching her own with his.

Together. They breathe.

He rocks me so softly, whispering sweet nothings. As my eyes again start to feel heavy after so much crying and sedatives given, I fall in the arms of Morpheus once again.

Sai wonders maybe Virat would have proper answers. Right? Wouldn't he?

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But he doesn't. He just keep on apologizing for making me take decision of leaving Chawan Nivas. For ignoring me, mistreating me, as he did in past. What is this reality? she thinks. 

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Virat POV

Sitting and waiting never felt so painful. Just waiting to listen more about Sai's condition from someone. Days have gone by but Sai has still not opened her eyes after that one time. He kept the sneaky trips to Sai's bedside, a secret close to heart he had to assure himself that she was lived, maybe she would listen to his voice and wake up. Regret filled his every pore, remembering and analysing how his every action of rudeness, anger and ignorance that brought Sai hurt these past days had led her to a decision leaving safety of home. Cursing myself as I remembered only trying to spare myself the feeling of rejection, he hadn't listened to Devi Tai.

Actions that only brought him, so apart from Sai. So near, yet so far. That he felt lost of right to see her. She had left me. Got so hurt, all because me, if he had stopped her when Devi tai told him... Never had he regretted his attitude before, as he did so now.

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My eyes snapped open as Aai rushed out of Sai's room, calling my name frantically. "Virat." As my heart stopped for a moment. "What happened Aai? Is Sai okay?"

"Bada come in. Sai won't stop crying, kitna bura hal bana liya he apna. Doctor ne maina Kiya he usse stress Dene se." And his feet moved on their own, just to reach Sai.

Opening the door hurriedly, hears Sai sobbing ...sees her face streaked with tears and she's starting to gasp for breathe. Turns towards Aai, asks her to fetch the nurse.  

He won't let no one stop him from reaching her. Not even himself unless she herself decided and told me so. I took her in my arms gently. She felt... so fragile, what happened my feisty Sai?

As I calmed her down, whispering sweet nothings. I heard her breath getting evened out, and continued do so as a nurse fiddled with Sai's drip, he hoped she won't remember me says anything, him calling her love, whispering I love yous gently... even though he knew she didn't love him back like he did.

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I loved her so much. That it hurt seeing her like this. So broken.

I treated her so wrong.

I did this. 

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I broke the promise I made to her father. He didn't took great care of Sai. She should have been his first priority. 

Promises of our marriage. Even the responsibility that tied him to her, were ignored. 

Promises to her. All broken.

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No more. I thought to myself, you will change yourself Virat and he will do anything for Sai's happiness, He would be her pillar rather roadblock, in whatever capacity and decisions Sai will take in her life next.

He would fight for Sai's happiness.

Endnotes-

I know people would say Sai sleep so much in the story till now. But seeing what happened in serial, I found it lacking in details. Disclaimer - My opinion only, you can have yours.

I have made Sai waking to senses a bit different, as I wanted to portray the hysteria of being dumped from one tragedy to another. Will continue it bit more as Sai comes to realise her situation.

Ok. Till now you have grasped that- Yes Sai time travelled somehow, but not Virat. If not, sorry for bloopers. Also ignore grammar mistakes if you find any, don't have a Beta here. 

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