Fighting For Euphoria

2. Reality Sinks In

Summary - Sai's jumbled mind. Sai meets Virat for the first after her accident and they hold hands. The discussion is further in the end notes.

Sai POV

As Sai gains consciousness, finds Virat's aai once again by her bedside. Looking younger than she saw her last time on the plane. Is she in the same nightmare again? 

A calendar in the room catches my eye, it is of 2021.

Was it not dream? They really told me it's 2021. 

Was I in some kind of limbo previously? 

Coma? 

Have I gone mentality unstable...and the years I lived was that of my imagination... But it all felt so real. How could I have such elaborate memories? 

I got Vinayak and I had Savi. Didn't I? Were they also imaginary? Didn't I had them? Am I crazy, finally going senile in death?

A touch on my cheeks startled me out of panic and turmoil, to find Aai consoling me, I didn't even realising that I had started to cry. Tears making my eyes blur.  Aai pleading me to calm down. "Sai." 

"Bada...shant ho jao..shh...why're you crying ha? See all it's ok... you're okay...stop crying or your head will start paining, Sai beta." But how can I tell her it's not my head but my heart that hurts. It's not okay, nothing at all seems to make sense to her and I think I have gone mad.. 

"Everything is going to be alright ok. Shant bada... Do you want water?... No? Do you want me to call the doctor. Are you in pain?" But sobs won't stop, there is something so painful in breathing Sai feels suffocated. 

Nothing is right. I don't know why I'm here, is it another punishment? Even if my kids were my dreams in unconsciousness, a figment of imagination, I want to return to the time or state where they exist, they were the only thing that she could recall that brought her unbound happiness and calm.

"Should I call for Virat?" Aai desperately asks finally, noticing that Sai worsening her health by crying.

Yes, Sai nods. Receiving some kind of reply for the first time, Aai rushes out of the room.

But I could only think of Virat, now. Clearly remembering the last moments they both shared on the plane before dying. 

Why wasn't he here beside her already? Did he?...Did he die and I didn't. But why? Was I all alone in this but where is here? Just as my lungs starts to burn thats when I realise my breath coming short and I'm gasping. I'm having a panic attack. Shit.

I didn't hear the door opening, or the feet rapidly approaching her bedside. Only focusing on my thoughts, trying to find my breath.

Someone takes her in their arms. Arms so familiar...Strong arms that had supported her through so many falls and even in her last breath. 

Virat... 

Virat. He didn't die. He's alive..

Speaking to me so softly, "Sai, Calm down, here breath with me. Follow my heartbeat. Breath with me... follow."  He takes my trembling hand and place it on his chest. His heart is beating. So alive, just like me. She breaths in a long take, sobs as her hands clutch onto his shirt. 

This wasn't afterlife, we aren't dead.

He's with me, here. Whatever this was. I'm not alone.

Sai find her panic receding, as she tries to follow Virat's breaths matching her own with his.

Together. They breathe.

He rocks me so softly, whispering sweet nothings. As her eyes again start to feel heavy after so much crying and sedatives given, she falls in the arms of darkness once again.