Why don't you love me back ☆━Xingyun━☆

7- Realization

Chongyun's POV

I watch Bennett leave the room. Frustrated, I pull out a popsicle and lean back on the nurses bed. I should probably start walking home soon or else auntie Shenhe will get mad. I lazily inch off of the bed and onto the floor, I stand up and make my way towards the door. I grab the knob but before I could turn it the door opens, hitting me in the face. "I'M SO SORRY!!" Screamed the person that opened the door. I sit there for a moment trying to process what just happened, then I look up to see Barbara looking panicked. "Oh Chongyun I'm so sorry! Come on I'll give you some ice" she says apologetically, she sits me down on a bed and starts making me an ice pack, making small talk in the meantime. "What happened to Xingqiu? Is he alright?" She asks while looking over her shoulder. "He went home, but he left looking a little sad.." She paused for a moment, then makes her over to me, she places an ice pack in my hands. "Perhaps he's still feeling a bit under the weather, maybe you should check up on him" I look at her for a moment, frowning, "I don't think he wants to see me right now Barbara," I stand up and put the ice pack on my head. "Thanks for the ice, I'll see you around." I quickly leave and close the door before she could respond.

I leave the school, ready to go home, it's gotten a little dark, hopefully auntie Shenhe isn't too upset with me. As the thought of my aunt crossed my head, my phone simultaneously buzzes in my pocket. I look at the screen hoping the message I just received was from Xingqiu. But no, it was my aunt.

Auntie <3

Where are you.

Sorry auntie, I was
still in school, I'm on my
way home now 😓

You need to text me
when you stay after school
we will converse more
about this when you arrive
home.

I sigh as I place my phone back into my pocket, can't wait to be scolded as soon as I get home.. I try to occupy my mind, thinking about the color of the sky and other insignificant things as I start slowly inching closer and closer to my house. But inevitably, my mind wanders to everything that's been going on recently. I don't know why but ever since Aether and that guy fremi- whatever his name is have come around, my usual routine has been anything but normal. Usually after school Xingqiu and I would go to each other's houses and spend time together, we would do homework or talk about anything and everything and absolutely nothing at all. On weekends we would go into town and try new food places, shop and just walk around aimlessly, that was my normal and I miss it. I know this might seem a bit unfair to fremi.. the blonde guy, because it's his first day but I didn't like how.. close? Xingqiu and him seemed to be, maybe it only seemed that way because Xingqiu is overly friendly, especially to shy people. But either way it really irritates me. And I guess Aether hasn't really been helping this situation either, since the moment Xingqiu met him he's acted indifferent towards him which offsets the mood anytime the three of us are together, it just doesn't feel right. And on top of all of that Bennett is mad at me for some reason?? UGH this is all becoming way too much for me to handle.

I reach inside my school bag and pullout a popsicle, I could feel myself getting heated, so many emotions.. so many people.. so many questions.. At this point I just want to crawl into bed and stay there for a good 5 years. I turn on my street and spot my house, my heart starts beating rapidly, anticipating what auntie Shenhe might say to me when I step through the door. Suddenly a sense of dread wells up inside me, she might actually kill me today for not telling her that I was staying after school, I could explain that it was for a good reason though! Xingqiu wasn't feeling well and I was just looking after him.. but unfortunately for me, auntie doesn't like Xingqiu, she says he's a "bad influence" but I don't really understand why she thinks that. Sure he can be a bit impulsive with his decisions but I wouldn't consider that to be a bad quality, I actually kind of find it endearing, but that's nothing new, I find a lot of things about Xingqiu endearing, I could go on and on about his good qualities..