her (stemxstud)

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Minseo pov

as we sat and ate the food ky brought i  couldnt stop staring at her. it was so sweet it made me feel special. she looked so good slurping those wings. that wasnt the only thing i wanted her to suck on. im not gonna lie i feel very touch deprived. but i dont think id be able to handle it right now. i wanted to take things slow with my love life. the last time i let someone get to close too fast it left me bruised and scared for my life. how did i know i could trust her? what if all these kind gestures was to just get me to let my gaurd down so she could take advantage of me. i was determined to not become dependent or get hurt by anyone else. not after she hurt me. 

flashback 

"why the fuck are you always talking to them??" jay yelled and me gripping my arm as she drove down the highway speeding through all the cars. "jay please stop" i begged with my head down "nah dont start allat crying shit now. you wasnt crying when you was smiling in that bitch face!" her gripp tightened and i felt my hot skin pressing against my bone. jay was mad i was talking to my old friend she cut me off from. i didnt even mean to see them i just ran into them when we were out. " i leave you alone for oneee fucking second and u out here flirting with bitches?? thats how u do me minseo???" "NO!" i yelled as tears escaped my eyes.  she let go pushing me into the side of the door. i could see her looking at me not focusing on the road. "jay please watch out" i tried to warn her cause she almost hit a car. "you know what? its okay, wait until we get home. imma show u who ur playing with." she said as she started speeding again.

end of flashback. 

"hello?" ky was swinging their hand in front of my face. "sorry" "why you always in ur head ma?" i looked down "its where i feel safest." ky now looked like she was in thought.  i heard a knock on the door. it mustve been the delivery people. "hey can i use your bathroom?"  i told her where it was as i went to answer the door. it was this crusty looking fat guy he had a clipboard. i could see him staring at me eyeing me up and down. "is tamar here?" he asked "no im her daughter tho." "sign here for me sweetheart" he says licking his lips. i sign and he goes back to the truck two more guys get out and they all start loading boxes into my living room.

"so wheres your mom?" this nigga just couldnt stay back. "shes at work." i say in the most uninterested tone. he looks around and sees that neither of the guys are paying attention so he steps closer to me "you know she still has payments to make on this furniture" he tried to stroke my hair but i stepped back looking away. i felt my heart beating out of my ass. "so what?" i say not looking at him. 'where tf was ky' i thought. "im just saying if you wanted to help her pay that off, i can think of something you can do" i stay quiet "you know your real pretty" he says trying to grab my arm. "back off!" i semi yelled "oh come on dont be like that. just let me, wheres your bathroom" he says trying to get closer to me. i felt myself start to hyperventilate. i wanted to yell i wanted to scream but i couldnt make anything come out. he grabbed my arm and started to try to walk with me down the hall. but i planted my feet trying my best not to move or look at him. "ky." i whispered. a tear falling down my face