Infatuation

Chapter 1

So today I heard the alarm again..And even if I don't want to, I will have to endure another miserable morning today.
As soon as I switched off the alarm in anger, I cursed myself as usual.
Don't misunderstand, my morning is like this every day.

Like every day, I wake up, curse myself and then go to the terrace, listening to the sound of birds and looking at the sky, I feel at peace.
It is very important for me to do this because if I do not give myself this peace, my anger will only bother my family throughout the day.

It is 6 o'clock in the morning or I have thought that I should do some exercise. I am feeling a lot of sunlight right now because I don't know when it is 6 to 8 o'clock and I remember that I slept again on terrace.

She sighed..and...When she come downstairs, she saw that her mother is already preparing some good breakfast in the kitchen, the aroma of which is driving away her diet.

I silently drank cold water from the fridge and then my mother looked at me or just then she started saying that cold water in the morning is not good for health .

I don't know what was going in my mind but after listening my mother's daily speech I said " Jeena kise hai Jo sehat ka dhyan rakha jaye."
I don't know if my mother heard me or not but she looks at me like she will eat me .
As soon as I saw my mother's reaction, I quickly ran to my sister's room to escape.

Maa scolded me after saw me running inside my sister's room- Agli baar bolkar dekhna agr Zinda chhod diya toh humara naam bhi pushpa Singh nahi smjhiiii....

As soon as I go to my sister's room, I see her sleeping with so much joy and here I have had sleepless nights.

I lie down on my sister's bed and start tickling her and she wakes up screaming on me..

I said " Get up Santu, have you seen the time, it is 10 o'clock and you are sleeping this time."

SS- jhuth mt bolo karishma didi abhi sirf 8:30 hue hai aap roz kaise same line bol deti ho sone do na thodi der.

Ks- beta shukr manao sirf gudgudi ki hai agr mene paani dala toh kya hoga?

And as soon as I get this idea, I pick up the water bottle and take some water and pour it on her..

She got up hurriedly after this and starts calling her mother for beat me .

Ps- chillao mt santu hum khana bana rhe Hain na tum dono ka roz ka hai khud dekho me nahi aungi bachane or so 10 tk

Ss - maa abhi sirf 8;30 hue Hain aap bhi didi ki baton mein aagyi had hai .

She made a poor face and got up from bed and take her water bottle and pour on me the whole water and Before she could turn the room into a swimming pool, I ran away from there and went to my room to freshen up.

My classes have started only two-four days ago. I am so introverted that I don't even bother to go. I used to study at home. Now I thought of starting the classes.

Today I am wearing normal trousers and tshirt to become a little normal or what can I say, my condition is getting worse by staying at home or in a room whole of my day...I heard somewhere that if I want to make myself normal then I should be a little prepared for the situation where everything seems normal or because of staying in one room for 24 hours, anxiety issues bother me daily.

After eating my breakfast and talk about some things with my mother and a little cute sister ...

I went back to my dark room to study or rather I started finding peace in the darkness.

I have thought about starting my life again as a new born baby for my family or myself or forgetting the past and just focusing on my studies as I don't want to hurt or hurt my family due to my condition.

Today I just spent the day studying and trying to forget the past and I had my lunch and dinner in my own room.

Like every evening, even today I was sitting on the terrace listening to sad songs and looking at the sky.its like a habit of mine to sit on terrace in evening daily.

After that I go to sleep and thought of not getting up on another morning.

" Kabhi bacchon si jhalakti hain nadaniyan mujh mein,
Kabhi itna sambhalta hoon ki umar kaamp jati hai."