forgotten

Paris

We pull up to the dropoff lane of the airport sucking in a deep breath i look at harry looking hard into his frosty green eyes as his face drops  knowing he has to part with me "lindie you dont have to go"he says grabbing my thigh rubbing his tumb in small circles "i wont be but a week you wont even notice im gone"i say caressing his face in my hands.i see tears welling up in his eyes and i notice thats my cue "harry i have to go or ill miss my flight""ill be waiting right here were you left me"he says as i pull him in to a kiss it lingers longer than i want it to "lindie i love you""i love you too harry"i say jumping out the car in a swift moment

The flight is longer than i expected im thankful when i touch london ground i call a uber heading tworads my friend anas condo. she was another close friend i grew up with. she was a high fashion clothes designer and spent most of her time in london and being that it as fashion week i knew she was in town so when i called her and told her i was comeing to london she offerd for me to stay with her.i knock on the door and as soon as it open i drop my bags and pull her into a hug as great childhood memories flood into my brain "omg i thought you would never make it "she laughs pulling out of our hug "i no there was some delays in new york but im here and hungry, feed me"i say wlking in and ploping on her expensive leather couch. ana has done well for her self being shes only one of the top designers in the world. "Wheres lana"i ask knowing shes not far off from her "she had some interveiw early today she should be home any minute"she awnsers while stiring some that smells like heaven on he stove.she finally finished cooking just as lana walks in' hey lindie your here"she says pulling me into a hug.i would be lying if didnt say i had a woman crush on lana but ana was lucky enough to score her "so what bring you to town"she says as she leans in to kiss ana"not much just wanted a change of scenery and i have a couple of shoots while im here"hows harry"i take in a deep breath i havent even thought about him untill now and all of our problems hit me like a birck wall.i smile and say hes good just busy with his school and leave it at that.we finish our dinner with pointless conversations and some wine.i say im going to haed to bed because im suffering from a little jet lag.i fall into bed and start to fall into my mind thinking am i really where I want to be.not here in london but here in my life, with harry ,with myself i could sit here all night and think but i feel myself slipping into a deep sleep.