forgotten

mistakes

I wake up and look at the clock 4:30 wow i guess i was really jet laged.i jump out of bed and gather my things to take a shower.i pull on my black ripped skinny jeans and sheer white croptop with a cutout in the back showcasing my butterfly tattoo.i make my way to the mirrior to put on a littie makeup not to much just some eyeliner and base.i mke my way downstairs to find lana on the couch smoking a joint and watching mindless tv "wheres ana"i say pouring a glass of water "she at the venue preparing for her show tonight""oh"is all i say "well im going out ill see you later"and with that i leave.it 5:30so i wonder around town for awhile and grab someting to eat and look at the time 9:00 i guess i can go to the bar for some drinks.I step in and take a seat at the bar ana order a gin&tonic.i sip the drink and get that burn i love so much."whats a beautiful woman doing here by therself on a night like this"i look to my left and see a short brownheaded woman with captivating blue eyes "not muchjust having a drink or two"i say introducing myself"linde and you are""ruby ruby rose"she says shaking my hand as i pick up on her accent "Australian" "yes and i see your american""yep born and raised"i say fisinhing off my drink"how about i buy you a drink and you tell me about yourself"i nod as she calls over the bartender to take our order.

Many drinks and conversations later im walking in to her apartment.as soon as she closes the door her arms are wrapd around me and her lips crash to mine we move in sync and i allow her toung entrance to my mouth.now taking off our cloths as we make our way to her bedroom she pushes me onto her bed and climbs on top of me and continues her assault on my neck slowly makes her way down she hooks her finger in my underware pulling them off.
I wake up with a pounding head and pry my eyes open and take in my surroundings just as everyting from last night comes flooding back to my mind. I look over to see a very naked woman laying beside me.oh god what have i done.i slowly get out of the bed and try not to wake her but was unsuccessful "morning beautiful "she says stretching out her arms "um i have to go"i say as i start gathering my clothes and puting them on in a haste "your not even going to let me make you breakfast"she says standing up in her naked glory "i really have to go but thanks for last night"i say walking out of the room and grab my purse and leave.oh god what have i done all i can think about right now is harry i just cheated on harry oh god what have I done.i make my way back to anas trying not to cryy or throw up.i walk in and im met woth lana and ana makeing out on he couch "sorry guys dont let me stop you"i say pouring a glass of water."so where were you last night"i break into sobs as ana walks over to me and hugs me "i did something really bad last night "oh god what did you do lindie"."i cheated on harry i fucking cheated on harry"now crying uncontrollably "waht are you going to do"she says rubbing small circles on my back."im going to go to my room and and cry some more and then call harry"i say leaving the room and make my way up to my room.i fall into the bed and just lay there and cry and cry.how could i do this why was i such a bad person im in love with this perfect man and now i have ruined it.i lay there and thank about some of the memories me and harry have shared wich just make me feel even more guilty. I guess its time to call him .i dial his number and after a few rings he picks up "hello"he says slowly being that i just woke him up "harry we need to talk"