I love you but I can't

Chapter 4

As I get done reading, I see Aaron come out of his room " oh, and we have that gala tonight I already sent the money to you for your dress and stuff don't forget to make sure the planner has the venue done I'm surprise you didn't want to plan the gala yourself" he says

I had Mira do all the planning and she's amazing

" oh thank you,and she should, also I would never" i say back "not to be a bother, but do you have anyone who can take me shopping ?" I say. "I can do it if you don't mind swinging by my office." he says. "no it's no problem. Just let me get dressed real quick." I say quickly hurry to my room I just throw on jeans and a red corset top

-in the car-

" OK I'll be right back" he says, going into his office building
Feels like forever, but he's finally back

-2 hours later-

now we're at the mall in Chanel I'm in the changing room trying on a dress and Aaron, right beside the door
I get a text from my dad that says "you need to post something today you haven't posted at all we need other families to know we are allies" I sigh

Aaron,knocks before saying " you OK?" I look at the door before saying. " yes, I just need to post  today. And the stupid dress won't go on." I sigh again before I hear. " may I come in" I'm confused "yeah sure?"

he squeezes in the tiny space and I explain to him the zipper won't go up. Then he starts to zip it up and I feel his fingertips slightly graze my back before he says " I'm sorry about Julia this morning. I think it's just a pregnancy hormones and well you know" he says " yeah, I understand"

He looks at me and says " you should get this you look great in it it really suits you" I thank him before turning back " we could post now get it off our plate" he says " OMG you're a literal genius" I say, beaming at him

We take a couple pictures in the dressing room of him with his hand on my lower waist with my hand over his with my engagement ring showing and then we continue on shopping

– Later–
As we're walking through the food court, I have a corndog in my hand in the slushy in one and he's holding all the bags.
He wipes something off my cheek with his free hand
" well, thank you kind sir" i say laughing

I must've got ketchup on my face. While eating.
I look up and he has a big bright, beaming small on his face I've never seen him like this anywhere not in articles or even in person it's rare but beautiful sight

All of a sudden, it's like somebody sucker punched him his smile drops his eyebrows go down his entire face transforms along with his mine, does to

When I look up there stands Julia With not a hurt expression, but an anger one like I just stole her sucker or took her toy on the playground like I'm the bully or I am the mean one like I'm stopping her dreams

She storms over, causing a scene, my cheeks immediately turn bright red, but what surprises me most is that Aaron grabs my arm and led me to the back of the shopping center

I hear Julia storming after us, causing an even bigger she's yelling now soon as we get to the back of the mall Aaron stops turns around let's go of my arm " oh my God, Julia, could you not be a baby for once" he says " why because you don't care about ours" she says in a sobbed voice

" oh my god you're one of the most overdramatic people I've ever met. I've tried to be nice I really have Julia but I can promise you there's nothing going on between us there never will be, but we have to do what we have to Do you signed up for this life we didn't have a choice we were born into it Aaron, I'll see you in the car" I say before i storm off I'm hot, telling it to the car and almost there before I hear

" wow and you're not dramatic" as I start to open the car door it's like someone just punched me in the back of my head I don't know what's going on when I turn around I see Julia she starts to go in for the swing so I simply push her back she immediately falls to the ground screaming crying.

I see Aaron look up at me before rushing to her side "you can take my car back home. I'll just call us a limo" is all he says, like I did something wrong Did I do something wrong? Am I the bad guy?

No, no no no I have been the bad guy my entire life I will not sit here and let him belittle me " listen Aaron today  was fun but I don't want to see her again"

I then get in the car and drive off they're still on the sidewalk. It hurts a little bit, but not enough to care not enough to let myself get literally assaulted just to be the good guy.

– Later –
I've gotten ready and so is Aaron I suppose I walk out into the living room and say " I need to post tonight because all of the ones from today are blurry" I say

" yeah OK" is all he says "why why do you act like this is solely my fault it's not you know it's not so why why do you choose to hate me? Why do you choose to take out all your anger on the situation on me me and you are in the same boat" i say

"BECAUSE I WILL NEVER GET TO LOVE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE PUBLICLY I WONT BE ABLE TO LOVE HER LIKE I WISH" he yells in a voice I can't put my finger on

I did delete the picture, but it's probably still in my cloud storage. That's what I think anyway, after hearing him say that it's like it's like knowing you can't compare you can't even begin its like I'm trapped with, no getting out no going home nothing

I stormed to my room, grabbed my phone pulled up the picture from my storage "IS THAT WHO YOU LOVE IS THAT HER" i yell in a Brocken voice

"No no you're lying you're lying" he says, running a hand through his hair  "god, how jealous can you be? does your selfishness have no end really your shallow" is all he says

My mother arrives at the door. I hear three Knocks " it's my mother, their all in a limo downstairs" I swallow I take his hand planting a kiss on it " for the pictures" I answer for his confused face. He's  still steaming.

" I'm sorry I really am" is all I say before taking a quick picture and then uploading, it with Taylor Swift's lover in the background, walking out him right behind me