scoups; him as your blind best friend

Chapter 7

You were in shock, didn't moved an inch. He slowly moved back after some seconds, leaning his forehead against yours.
"I'm sorry." He said.
You blinked a few times. "Cheol..."
He sighed, pulling away from you. He moved his hand through his hair, looking completely angry at himself. You stood there, only looking at him.
Did he really kissed you? You did not dream it? This really happened?
"Cheol, I-"
"No, don't say anything. I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that."

-Cheol POV-

He doesn't know why he did that. This wasn't his plan. He didn't wanted you to know, what he feels about you. He didn't wanted to ruin the friendship. But it felt kinda right to him in that moment, with the dance and the song. He just had to. And now the friendship is ruined and you must think the worst of him.
All these years he had tried his best to not show any romantic interest in you, trying his best hide his feeling from you and Joshua and Seungkwan.
And now he completely ruined it because his hormones couldn't take it anymore.
He tried to focus on the sounds around him, when he made his way out of the crowd, pushing everyone away, mumbling some "sorry" here and there. He heard you shouting from behind, but tried to ignore it as much as he could. Coming outside, he breathed in and out a few times.
Fuck I forgot my stick inside.
He tried to make his way to the sidewalk, pulling his phone out, to call his dad to pick him up. He stumbled over something, loosing his balance.
"Seungcheol, Stop!!" He heard his friends shouting from somewhere before something hit him hard. Everything turned black.

-Y/n POV-

You watched his body lying on the ground, not moving. You started to cry, to scream, to hyperventilate. Joshua and Seungkwan were running to Seungcheol, trying to wake him up. Blood. Blood was everywhere. His head a big wound, his eyes were closed. He is not moving.
Is he even breathing?
Joshua called an ambulance. People around you started to whisper, people were crying, asking others for help.
You just stood there and looked down at Seungcheols body. It was your fault, at least that's what you think. You should have stopped him from running away. You should have run right after him and not look for Joshua and Seungkwan. You should have told him how you feel about the kiss, about him. You should have told him, that you love him.

And now you don't even know, if he's gonna make it.

The ambulance came and took him into the hospital. Joshuas dad came and drove you there too. Seungcheol parents were already there, waiting for the assistants to tell them something. You were still crying, when you got up to them.
"Y/n, tell us, what happened?" His mom asked, leaning her back on her husband, while trying to stop crying.
You shook your head. "I- I don't know. There was just blood everywhere."
Mrs. Choi cried harder, hiding on her husband's chest.
"Did something happen between the two of you?" Her husband asked, looking at you with so much pain in his eyes.
You shook your head again. You're not going to tell his parents now, what just happened between you. They would blame you for it and you already blame yourself enough.

Joshua and Seungkwan were standing at the side, trying to hold everything together. You were going to them, straight into Joshua arms. He hugged you tight.
"What happened, y/n?" He asked, patting your back.
You sniveled. "Don't blame me."
"Are you crazy, why would we blame you?"
"He.. He kissed me. And I was just shocked that I didn't moved or kissed him back. He just said that he was sorry and then ran away."
The boys sighed.
"I knew it." Seungkwan murmured.
You looked at him. "What do you mean?"
He sighed. "The last months I thought something was off. He acted differently than before when you were around. But I thought we just.. got older and that's his behavior."
You felt Joshua nodding. "Yeah I noticed it too."
You swallowed. "Did everyone noticed... except me?"
"Don't blame yourself, y/n. What happened isn't your fault."
You cried harder. "I- I just should have kissed him back. H-He shouldn't be here."
Joshua patted your back. "Sssh, y/n. Everything is gonna be okay."

After two hours, you were still in the waiting room. The three of you were sitting on the ground, your head resting on Joshuas shoulder. You tried to sleep, but couldn't. Seungcheols mom was crying the whole time. Seeing her so much in pain, hurts your heart. She doesn't deserve this. Mr. Choi doesn't deserve this. Seungcheol doesn't deserve this.
"Are you Seungcheols guardians?" A woman came up to Mr. and Mrs. Choi. Seungcheols mom jumped right up, nodding.
"Yes, yes we are. How is he?"
You stood up too, running to them. Mr. Choi laid his hands on either of Mrs. Choi and your shoulders.
"He is okay. We had to vacuum the blood out of his head, since it got too much. He has a traumatic brain injury. He is asleep now but it might be possible that he has memory loss." The woman said.

Memory loss? He won't know what happened?
"Can we see him?"
The woman nodded. "Yes, you can." She looked at you. "And you are?"
You hesitate. "I... I'm-"
"She is his girlfriend." You heard Seungkwan saying behind you. You didn't noticed that they were standing right behind you.
You nodded slightly. "Yeah... I'm his girlfriend."
Mrs. Choi looked at you.
"Okay, you can come see him too. Follow me please."

You went into his room.
He was lying in the hospital bed, machines were everywhere around him. His head was bandaged. He looked terrible.
You cried out by the look of him. His mom did the same.
"When is he going to wake up?" His dad asked the woman.
"We can't tell yet. He has to decide that."
You were slowly going to his bed, standing next to it, looking down at him. He looked peaceful, like he was just sleeping and dreaming something. Not like he was just hit by a car, while running away from you.
You took his hand. It was cold and some blood was still on it. You tried to rub it off, but without success. You sniveled again. "I'm so sorry." You whispered.
"He needs rest now. You can talk to him but softly. Stay at his side and comfort him. He can feel your presence and hear your voices. If you need anything, or if he wakes up, ring the bell please." The woman said.
"Thank you." Mr. Choi said.
The woman left the room, leaving Mr. and Mrs. Choi and you alone. Mrs. Choi got next to you, sitting on the bedside. She looked at her son, still crying.

"What happened between you two, y/n?" She asked. Her voice only a whisper.
You let go of his hand. Looking at Mrs. Choi with tears in your eyes. "I didn't loved him back when I had to."
She looked at you. "What?"
You swallowed. "H-He kissed me. I was just so shocked that I didn't moved. He ran away after."
His parents sighed. "Did you know he had feelings for you?" His dad asked.
You looked at him, shaking your head. "No, no i haven't. I.. I didn't know he saw me as something more than a best friend."
His dad smiled slightly. "Not? It was pretty obviously."
Mrs. Choi agreed.

You looked between the two of them back and forth. "You knew it too?"
His mom nodded. "Yeah, kinda. He acted differently lately. And he was always so happy whenever he talked about you. He was sad when he got accepted to college, knowing he won't see you as much as he does now."
Tears were rolling down your face. "I- I didn't know."
His mom took your hand. "Love makes you blind, sweetheart."
You sniveled. "I'm so sorry."
"Don't be, y/n. It's not your fault." Mr. Choi said.
"Tell me, y/n, do you like him too?" His mom asked.
You looked at Seungcheol, nodding. "More than you could imagine."
Mrs. Choi smiled. "That's what I thought."

You spend the next few hours waiting for Seungcheol to wake up. Joshua and Seungkwan went in too, staying there for a while. They told you to go home, change your clothes and get some rest, but you denied every time. You won't leave him as long as he is asleep. You agreed to change your clothes, once the boys are back from changing. At least they could watch over them. His parents went to get something to eat.
You were sitting on a chair next to his bed, holding his hand. You looked at him. He still looks like he is sleeping peacefully, not being injured at all.
"I'm so sorry, Cheol." You tear up again. "I was just so overwhelmed in this situation. I didn't see it coming. You just told me that you like Min Jae and the next second you were kissing me. You did that what I wanted so bad to happen. I imagined this so many times."
A tear fell down on his hand.
"I love you so much, Cheol. I wanted to tell you for so long, but was too afraid to ruin our friendship. Cause this is more important to me than any feelings." You sniveled. "Please wake up. Please wake up so we can talk about this. Please wake up so we can go on karaoke dates with Joshua and Seungkwan again."
You cried out loud. "Please, Cheol."

Something squeezed your hand. Or more like someone. You looked up at his face. His eyes were open.
"C-Cheol..."
He smiled in pain. "Took you long enough."
You blinked a few times, making your tears fall down on him. "What?"
He turned his head towards you. "I love you too, y/n."