Destroy me

15

I dried my hands with the towel next to the sink. Finally finished washing those dishes. I could never do this daily. No idea how yeji does it.

I looked over at yeji who was on the couch with Yuna. They were watching a Spiderman movie, I think it was the homecoming one. Yeji looked over to my direction and gave me a small smile before looking back at the tv.

I still can't believe what happened earlier. She definitely realized what I was trying to do. I could see it in the way her mood shifted once I mentioned that guy.

I'll admit, I was too obvious, but he was getting on my fucking nerves. He's lucky they were in the same room or else he wouldn't have seen another day.

Especially after Yeji mentioned that he had been trying to make moves on her. More than once too.

"I'm her boyfriend, who are you?" That's very funny, veryyy fucking funny. Any other day he would've been choking on his blood before he could even utter another word to me. But Yeji was hurt and that was all that mattered in the moment.

I was pulled out of my thoughts when I felt a hand on my shoulder. I looked to my left and saw Yeji staring up at me. "Calm down, you're so tense. Just take a breather, you work yourself up too much." She said, rubbing my arm slowly.

I didn't even notice the hold I had on the counter, or when she stood up from the couch. I let go of the grip I had on the counter and turned my body towards her. She was right, I'm getting so upset for nothing.

The whole reason I proposed the divorce was so she could feel free to make her own decisions. And if those decisions happen to involve that dude then so be it. If she wants to... fuck, someone else, then so be it. Right? But just the thought of someone else touching her just infuriates me so much.

My teeth gritted at my thoughts. Fuck I really need like an anger management class or something.

Fuck, I keep trying to be so calm about it but I can't. I want her, and I want her to want me. I don't want anyone else's hands on her. I want the whole fucking world to know she's mine. I could just call off the divorce but that defeats the whole point.

"You're doing it again, snap out of it." Yeji said tugging on my sleeve. I closed my eyes and breathed slowly. I need to get out of here.

The longer I stay the less control I have over my emotions. I feel so vulnerable. I'm really getting heated over some mediocre peasant who does nothing but scream.

This is not who I am. I'm always calm, I never care. If she doesn't come to me on her own then fine.

I opened my eyes and looked at Yeji again. "I'm gonna go home, but I'll see the both of you tomorrow." I said, moving away from her grasp and towards the living room to say goodbye to Hanni.

She looked up at me from the couch. I picked her up from under her arms, "I'm going to leave right now. But I'll come visit you again tomorrow, okay mi amor?" I told her, pecking her on the cheek.

She pouted her lips and tugged on my shirt. "Stay mama" She whined and kept gripping my shirt. My eyes widened at her nickname for me, Mama.

I felt my heart skip a beat, I guess Yeji told her already, yet I'm still surprised she's calling me that so soon.

"I can't my love, I'm sorry. Tomorrow I'll come over and take you both to a water park to make up for it, okay?" I told her, pecking her cheek one more time before setting her back down in the couch. She started pouting again but nodded in response.

I walked over to Yeji who was still in the kitchen, in the exact same spot she was. Her expression let me know she was annoyed. I think it's better to just leave without saying anything else, so I kept walking all the way to the door.