if only you knew

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seungkwan wiped his face clumsily as he rushed away from the cafe, his frustration only worsening when more of his tears continued to fall and replace the ones he had just wiped away. he didn't want to leave mingyu and wonwoo at the cafe, but he was going through too many motions and feeling too much to attempt to form a coherent thought, much less to have a level headed conversation with those fucking idiots. 

he may be more mad than anything.

the inside of seungkwan's head sounded like the ear-piercing cries of babies and cars crashing and a helicopter whizzing by; and all he wanted, all he needed, was to be alone. he'd just do what he always did: take some time away, force himself to apologize, and pretend none of it ever happened. 

but seungkwan knew that wasn't the right thing to do this time. and as seungkwan heard the unmistakable voices of his best friends shouting his name, he knew they agreed with him. 

seungkwan knew that running away was the wrong choice to make, but, be that as it may, that didn't stop him from yanking his arms away when his best friends got ahold him. the three of them tussled for a few minutes, but ultimately, seungkwan gave up, his entire body visibly deflating when he looked up at his friends.

wonwoo, who was trying to regain his breath from the altercation, panted lightly as he said, "seungkwan, we need to talk about this. you said this ends now, so we need to figure this out right now."

seungkwan let out a light scoff, still trying to fight his way out of their grasp as he mumbled, "easier said than done, hyung."

mingyu shook his head, pulling the youngest along further down the sidewalk. the two boys shared a look, unsure about where mingyu was taking them. the taller boy ignored their incessant questions and the strong stares he felt on the back of his head. he was just as tired as them of the run around they were giving each other, whether it was intentional or not. it was so typical of the three of them to ignore their problems. and, like seungkwan said, it was going to end now.

once the trio reached the front of mingyu's apartment complex, seungkwan felt his face fall at the sight of the familiar building. he always thought it was so convenient that the older boy lived so close to the downtown area. it made it easy for him or his friends to stop by and hang out with the taller boy. but, in this moment, seungkwan wished the older boy didn't live so close to that damned cafe. 

as the three boys climbed up the flights of stairs, seungkwan felt his footsteps slow down. he watched the older boys continue to ascend the staircase and wondered if he could just make a run for it. it would be so easy. the two of them didn't even notice that he stopped following them a whole flight of stairs ago. 

but seungkwan couldn't do that to them. they owed each other an explanation, and not the hurried and heated 'discussion' they had at the cafe earlier. so seungkwan quickly jogged up the stairs, suddenly feeling a burst of energy as he took the steps two at a time. he caught up to the older boys and even pushed past them, surprising the three of them as seungkwan made it to mingyu's floor and led the trail to mingyu's apartment.

seungkwan unlocked mingyu's apartment and held the door open for the older boys, letting out a sigh when he saw the two of them hesitate in the doorway. seungkwan let out a grunt and rolled his eyes as he pulled the two older boys inside. the trio silently untied their shoes and set them aside before they headed into the living room.

wonwoo spoke up first, a slightly embarrassed smile on his face as he said,  "okay, i'm going to start by saying that we should not have been having that conversation in the cafe."

"yeah."

wonwoo faced seungkwan this time, looking apologetic as he said to the younger boy, "i also want to say that we're sorry for... dumping all of that on you at the same time. we definitely could have done it better."