Faded Blue Fate

7. When I imagine life

So there is a letter I have been meaning to write,
But as a coward myself, I couldn't find courage.
I would rather stall and drink coffee,
Eating tiramisu, I would look at the blank page.

And wonder about the passing time,
Double digits, and I'd close my eyes,
Wishing desperate for you to become mine,
Dreaming of the love I could have.

But still, I couldn't gather courage,
There a skeptical look the blank page gave me,
And that was enough for me to go to bed,
Thinking about the next day, hoping for life to change.

So, all I am trying to say through this is,
I am writing to believe,
I would want to believe wishes come true,
But I am choking thinking what if it couldn't.

A lot of ifs, buts and doubts fill up my mind.
I know where I am walking does have an end,
But all I am doing is trying to manifest you there,
When I think about life, I want to think about the life where our love wins.