obsessed much!

TANU:

(Preface: I have been in a relationship with a guy over a year and its long distance. I don't know how did I fell for such guy...maybe because of my habit of reading romantic novels that lead me to pick this step!! So now I am just regretting or maybe it is just exhausting I don't know and I was just running away from him on the slightest reason I get...even though I know how he is crazy and obsessed with me.)

I don't know what's going on in my mind and I just wanted to get away from him even when I knew I loved him deeply and would have stayed if he said so....then just I thought I was being delusional for expected him to ask me to stay even when I had done nothing but hurt him...what will I do.

Through texting:

HIM: why are doing this to me I did nothing but love you and yet you say to leave me!! Whenever I do the slightest mistake.

ME: That's the thing, don't you get it!! I don't wanna be with you anymore. Just leave me alone

HIM: I can't leave you alone you know I love you...

ME: oh god! How should I do this we are in a fucking long distance relationship and I don't think it is working... I just came here to tell you. I am leaving I don't care what lies you spread about me just be gone from my life.

HIM: okay! That's what I thought I am just getting tired over explaining things to you always and I am getting tired okay! If you wanna go just go already why are you arguing?

(Suddenly my heart sank and it felt like...like there is a pit hole in my stomach.)

ME: oh!! Okk if that's what you want I will... bye I know you don't care what so ever I do after the breakup go up to a random guy and flirt with him openly after I got my freedom back..

(I knew deep down it was a lie...)

HIM: wow! I never thought you were such kind of a person from inside but , surprise...surprise girl even though I am letting you go doesn't mean I don't love you and you can do whatever you want .you must be delusional.

(I scoff.... As if he is gonna come here and question me over my disappearance . I know he won't . He is just saying like that.. I tell myself.)

ME: you know we are in a long distance relationship and we are like 50miles apart! And you won't do that, what are you gonna do, stalk me ? Or kill each and everyone who comes here near me?

HIM: babe, don't underestimate me .You don't know how crazy I am over you and you still have no idea what I can do... I will do anything whatever it takes to claim that you are mine.

ME: as if I care, stfu and just go away. wait, rather I will go away...

(I turned off my phone and kept it upside down and went downstairs...)

He kept on texting and calling and then suddenly my phone went silent like we just entered in a damn church... I didn't care , I was dancing over the songs and cooking my favorite meal. While drinking coffee and I was wearing nothing just a long over-sized t shirt. It was so big I felt like it could fit more 3 tanu's like me.

And then suddenly I got a call. Ignoring I continued what I was doing. And then I remember my best friend Zoe. We actually planned going to the library for studying. I looked at the time, and fuck! It was 5.50 and we were supposed to meet at 5.30. Shit! Shit! Murmuring to myself I ran upstairs and saw she called me like 15 times!!! Have these girl gone nuts. I hurriedly got ready and starting doing my hair when I suddenly I get a call and I knew it was her and without looking I picked it up and said hello! I am sorry Zoe am coming. Um tanu it's me sam. Fuck! fuck my life , my face looked pale like someone has sucked all the blood from my body. Because I knew I was going to get the scolding of my life.