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TANU

I was sitting in my rocking chair and looking the ceiling like a dead pan. Suddenly my eyes started filling up... and my thoughts were filled like why did reyan didn't tell me about any of this? I wouldn't have gone there and break my heart in million piece. Why did he didn't tell me about her before? Was he cheating on me? was I a joke to him all along? I knew his past yet I thought I can change him, I would love him so much he wouldn't want those things in his life.

I was crying uncontrollably and my phone started ringing. I looked and saw it was reyan. Why is he calling at this time? It is night time. I picked up and without saying hello he started,

Reyan: when are you going to be like before and pick me up? Didi.

Me: I am not going too and yes you can live there forever.

Reyan: but di-

(I hung up)

I cried so much! That I passed out in my chair.

In the morning I found myself on the floor. I must have fallen down thank god there was a rug I didn't hurt myself. I got up and took a shower and then I got a reminder notification that I have to go meet chris and then his mother too. I ate a banana and went to a flower shop. I chose tulips to give him and while I was waiting the flowers to get wrapped nice and pretty. My sight fell on the rose section and I saw blue roses. Just looking at them my eyes tear up to the brim.

I took the flowers and then I murmured to myself, "I wish I could have come later." I was walking to my car I stumbled upon my own feet. I cursed my heels and fixed my hair. I went and sat in my car. I wiped my eyes and I entered the hospital. I saw sam at the corner of my eye, thinking why was he following me? then I signed at the register and saw his mother's name. Mary Meash I sighed and walked to chris's room and I met him checked his vitals and chris held my hand and asked, "why are you sad and so distracted." I said, "nothing I saw sam and his mother, I didn't even know he was having so many problems and here I am becoming one. Sometimes I wish I should die its way too much to handle. Even my own brother doesn't tell me what the fucking happened in that damn home? why didn't he ask him what was he doing? Or just he loves shanaya more than me? I couldn't think anything more. But sam wasn't like this and I never imagined that I will see him fight over some other women who isn't me. I just love him so much I can't even move on." Chris stroked my shoulder and said, "who said you only have one brother? ain't I one?" I smiled at him and said, "sure are." He hugged me and I said, "I will get you something to drink." He nodded and I left .

And the unbearable thing happened I saw them again, again sam and shanaya. Where shanaya was bandaging his wounded hand and I couldn't help but stare at them. They were looking so cute together my heart and brain both hurts at the sight and thought. I guess its for the best. He doesn't love me anymore and I should stop thinking of him now.

As I was about to leave sam caught me watching them and I thought he will be angry and hurt me like that so I quickly left. I remember him calling out after me I went and bought some orange juice it was canned.

When I returned I heard some noises and the voice was too much recognizable and I knew who it was, I ran to chris's room where sam was helding chris's collar and 4 nurses were trying to stop him. I yelled, "SAMMM what are you doing?" he then left his collar and looked at me with those eyes. I was afraid I might fall in love with him again. I ran past him and helped chris who was coughing like he was breathing his last breadths. I checked the vitals and suddenly someone pulled me towards them.

Sam was looking in my eyes and I could see guilt, regret, sadness, jealousy and most importantly love. I said to myself, "you are hallucinating, he doesn't love you , he loves shanaya. You are In delulu wake up". Why now? Why now? Chris is watching. He claimed I am his , for what? Why is he coming back in my life so many times and making my heart ache more than before. When I said that I will find one he was so angry he kissed the shit out of me and even though I was regretting every single sec while we kissed I couldn't help but kiss back and I saw him with the regret look. He again kissed me and put his hand in my hair like before I missed him so much, I missed his touch his warmth. I was so angry and I started crying and moved my head aside and ran away.

I went and sat in the garden and was crying continuously my breath was not supporting me and I couldn't stop. There I met a grandma she said, "why are you crying child?" I guess she was one of the patients here. I hugged her and said, "I just don't know granny, it hurts so much. I don't even know what to do I love him so much I love him so much." Granny stroked my hair and said, "don't worry child every thing will go back to normal and you will be happy but I guess you should keep an eye on his mother I hope that will make your path easier" and I felt a big lump in my throat get cleared out. I thanked her and asked, "why are you out? Its not allowed right?". My one of the collegue came and said, "lets go tanu something happened." We ran in the old age ward room and saw a granny.

My eyes widened what the fuck? I just met her I told siya she said, "how is this possible? She is dead since morning." I couldn't believe what happened. But I guess she gave me a way to find out. But I was confused why did she help me? was there any connection with his mother. I will find out what is going on?

I went home and started to plan things out how to execute it! firstly I have to get information of his mother and also what was her connection with that grandma. i just know sam's mother isn't his birth mother. what happened to his birth mother? everything is such a puzzle to me. who is shanaya? everything was going in my head like a roller coaster. 

is there a reason why sam is behaving like this? he is claiming me his and also doing shit contradictory to his words. there must be some reason behind his actions.

i knew it sam would never betray me. but why didn't he tell me all about this?  i would have helped him i guess reyan knows everything i need to get information off him. but how?

I dont know what tanu is going to do but let me ask you this guy! 

shall i post a tanu part 2 or sam's pov after this chapter. tell me comment section otherwise i wont be able to decide i need your help.

love you guys and please vote the chapter as well will meet in next chapter.. bubyee!!!!!

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