The New Boy •[Phan]•

I love you!

~Walking~

We talked all the way home about our interests and dislikes. "I love lions!" Phil said. He was so cute!! "But I have a big secret," he started to whisper. I stopped walking and leaned in closer to hear him. "I sometimes draw cat whiskers on my nose when I'm home alone." He said whilst he giggled like a maniac. "That's so adorable!" I said. "That's why I moved schools." His smile went away. "What? Why?" I asked. "People thought I was weird so I never had any friends." He said. "But now I'm happy here because I have you as my first ever friend." He said looking at me with a big smile. "You.....want...to...be my f....friend?" I stuttered. "I am your friend!" Phil said. When he wasn't looking I ran up and hugged him really tightly he turned around and hugged me even tighter. As we separated he looked down at mine and his hands. They were intertwined once again. I gave a massive smile and carried on walking not even feeling awkward about our hands. As we got back to my house I unlocked the door and let Phil in. "Wow your house smells like vanilla." I looked at him funny and replied with, "thanks?" I said whilst laughing. "Sorry, I'm just weird." He said whilst looking at the floor. "No you're not, you're just unique!" I said whilst lifting his chin up to regain his warm smile. It returned and he followed me to my kitchen. "Hungry?" I asked. "No. But you must be you're so skinny!" He said. Oh no he noticed my unusualness. "No its just....I...." I stuttered for words. I couldn't just tell him. "When was the last time you ate?" He asked. "3 weeks ago" I said almost silent. But he got every word. He pulled me into yet another tight hug as I buried my head in his chest. "Dan, please you have to eat!" He said separating the hug. I nodded and went to get something. "Everything tastes the same though, fat" I said. "No it doesn't. Come on!" He said quite sternly. I grabbed an apple and a banana. "Happy?" I said quite childishly. I stormed off leaving Phil trailing behind. "Slow down Dan!" He shouted from the bottom of the stairs. I had gone into my room and shutting the door leaving Phil to find his own way. I had buried my face in my knees in the corner of my bedroom. Phil came in and rushed over to me. "I don't want to eat anything!" I said. "Please Dan, you have to!" He said whilst sitting down next to me. "But I don't want to-" I shouted back but then Phil's lips came crashing down on mine. Omg. Omg. Omfg!!! I kissed back but was too late as he separated. "Shut up and eat something you spork!" He shouted at me like the last 5 seconds had never happened. I couldn't stop thinking about what had just happened. "So?" He said. "I wanted you to shut up!" He said whilst laughing. "I'm not a spork!" I said shyly. He pushed me playfully and started to get up. I grabbed his hand and pulled him back down. "I need to tell you something Phil," I started. "Yeah?" He asked. "I.....I......well...I'm." I couldn't do it! Why can't I just say it? He looked at me with his big, beautiful eyes and cupped my cheek with his hand. I sighed and tried again. "I'm...I'm........gay." I spat out. Phil's eyes went wide for a moment but he settled down and gave me a loving hug. I could finally breathe again. "You're not going to say anything?" I asked. "No, isn't it normal?" He asked. He really didn't mind did he? "Well my dad said that I need to change because he's not having a gay son." I said looking down at the ground. Phil looked at me with loving eyes, "Dan, promise me you won't change for someone." He said. "I promise." I said whilst looking at him innocently. "Anyway, between you and me, I think you're pretty cute." He whispered. Did he just call me cute? I wanted to make-out with him right now! He leaned in closer to me and kissed me on the lips once again. I kissed back, not wanting to break this time. I moved my hand to his cheek and began to kiss more passionately. I'd only known him for a day but that can't change anything. I always had felt a strong connection with him ever since I first talked to him. We separated and he laughed. "What?" I said. "That was my first ever proper kiss." He said. "Really?" I said. "And I loved it!" He said leaning in once again. I let him and we made-out for 3 minutes until I heard a car pull up on my driveway. "shIT," I muttered. "Dan, calm down, I'll explain." Phil said. "No, we can't tell anyone, not yet anyway. But I'll do the explaining.....just.....shhh." I said pushing my finger against his lips. He took my hand and put it behind my back so I couldn't move and he leaned in yet another time and kissed me passionately. I kissed back and fell into it. I slid my tongue along his bottom lip asking for entrance and he actually let me in. I explored the inside of his mouth curiously. He pushed me against my bedroom wall and began to explore my body. He ran his hands up and down my sides making me moan in small intervals. "Phil.." I moaned. He started to kiss down my neck and along my jawline, leaving small love marks on my skin. We separated and started to make our way downstairs. "Dan!" A loud voice echoed through the house making Phil jump. "Are you home?" The voice came again. "Yeah!" I shouted back. "What are you doing home so early- who's this?" It was my mum. "This is Phil, my new friend." I said looking at him. He nodded in agreement. "Aww, you're cute. Well done Dan!" She said whilst patting me on the back. I rolled my eyes at her and signaled for her to go away. "Mum?" Phil said. "Yeah, she's really embarrassing." I said whilst walking back up the stairs, Phil following. "Why was she so proud of you?" Phil asked. I paused and looked down. "Well, I've never really had a proper friend before, especially not a best friend." I said feeling ashamed. He lifted my chin up and grabbed my hand as he walked into my room and shutting the door. "I want to be more than your best friend!" He said tilting his head all cute like. I leaned in once again to meet my lips with his. He kissed me gently but i wanted it to be powerful. I pushed him down to the floor and straddled him. I leant down and reconnected my lips with his again, passionately kissing him. I began to make a trail down his neck and slowly onto his chest. He was too quick for me and he began to straddle me. He had pinned my arms against my sides so that I couldn't move. He sucked my skin leaving love marks. He was like an angel. We heard footsteps come up to my door followed by a knock. "shIT!!" I moaned. Phil jumped off of me and sat on my bed. I stayed sat on the floor trying my best to cover the love marks Phil had just left on my skin. "Come in." I said nervously. The door opened and it was my mum again. "Would you like to stay the night Phil?" She asked. My eyes went wide and I looked over at Phil. "Sure," he said whilst winking at me. My mum smiled and left the room. "Phil......." I started. "Shhhh..." He said pushing his finger against my lips. "So we can cuddle all night." He said whilst winking at me again. My eyes went even wider to phill response. "Don't you need to check with your mum first?" I asked. Phil looked sad. "My......my...mum....died 2 years ago." He stuttered. "No Phil I'm so sorry!! I didn't know!" I said whilst hugging him and giving him sweet little kisses up and down his face. Silence flood across the room until he broke the silence. "I live on my own with my uncle. He's never home so I can do what I want really." He said. My eyes still feeling damp. "But don't feel sorry for me Dan, I can solve your problems first than my own." He said. He was so caring to me he really was. My mum knocked once again and stuck her head round the door. "You two don't mind sharing Dan's bed do you." She said. My eyes went wide but Phil nudged me out of my dream. "I don't mind." I finally said. As she went we both laughed and fell onto the floor lying face up. "Dan, I need to tell you something that I probably shouldn't have done." Phil said. I sat up. "Give me your arm please." He said. Oh shit he found out. I got up and prevented him from coming near me. "No Phil, please!" I pleaded. "Dan, it's okay." He said. "That's the thing, it's not!" I shouted. "How did you find out, who told you, who knows?" I asked worryingly. "Don't worry nobody else knows and no one told me." He said. I was still at the other side of the room trying to get him to stay away. "I saw them when I was carrying you to the nurses office. I swore on my mums grave that I would help you and not stop until I had done so." He said. I was a bit less self conscious about him now. But I still kept my distance. "Dan, please let me help you." He said. I sat down next to him. He unravelled the badly wrapped bandage around my arm. "Ow," I moaned. "Sorry!" He apologized. His eyes grew wider the more he unwrapped. "Other arm please," he said looking deeply into my eyes. I took the freshly unwrapped arm and stared down at it. I gasped in shock at what sort of pain I had inflicted myself with last night. Phil had finished unwrapping the other arm and he leant in and kissed me. He brought his hands up to my cheeks and passionately kissed me as I kissed back. He separated and took both of my arms in his hands. "Promise me you won't do it again!" He said. "I can't promise but I can hope!" I said leaning into his chest. He wrapped his arms around my small figure and hugged me lovingly. "Dan," he started. "You did know that I was gay right?" He finished whilst laughing. I joined in laughing and we hugged until night fall.