The New Boy •[Phan]•

Secrets

~Bedtime~

We had shared so much information about ourselves in the past hour then I have ever done in 16 years. "Favorite band?" Phil asked. "P!ATD, FOB, MCR." I said. "Favorite onomatopoeia? Mines crackle." He said in a cute tone. "Microwave," I said. "That's not an onomatopoeia!" He said. "Yes it is. Listen. Microwave." I said Phil shook his head. "It is!" I said. "Alright shut up with your microwave! Bed?" He asked. "Sure, it is getting late. 2:14 actually." I said. "Sharing is caring," he said as he slipped into my bed. I slid in and was soon greeted by a cuddling Phil. "Alright calm your titz!" I joked. Phil laughed and I saw that his tongue poked out the side of his mouth whenever he laughed. "You're so cute!" I said. "What? Why?" He asked. "How your tongue pokes out the side of your mouth whenever you laugh." I said. "You think so? I don't like it!" He said. I fixed his fringe out of his eyes so I could see the beautiful color they were. "I love you Phil!" I said before nuzzling my head into his chest. He wrapped his arms around me and closed his eyes.

~The Next Morning~

I was still wrapped up in Phil's arms when I woke up. He looked so peaceful. I ran my lips across his to which he woke up to. He shifted, took one look at me and closed his eyes again. "Hey!" I said whilst nudging him. His eyes shot open again and he held me tighter in his arms. "I love cuddles! Especially from you." I said. "You're so cheesy!" He said fixing my fringe. "No I'm not, I'm just being honest!" I said and settled back into his arms. "School?" He said. My mind filled with fear. "Uh....no." I said nervously. "Dan, trust me, it will get better." Phil said whilst kissing my cheek. "It's not that. I'm scared of Bradley hurting you." I said with a tear running down my face. "I don't want to hurt you!" I said. Phil wiped away my tears with his hand and cuddled me again. "Let's just skip school today then." Phil said. My eyes directed straight to his as he leaned in to kiss me again. Staying home with Phil. What an amazing idea. I separated. "Are you sure you don't mind Phil?" I asked. "Anything for you!" He said and leaned in once again. The kiss was ruined by my mum knocking at the door. We shot up and rearranged ourselves like nothing had happened. "Morning boys. Sleep well?" She asked. I nodded and so did Phil. "Why aren't you ready for school yet?" She asked. "Uh mum can we skip school today?" I hoped we could. "Yes of course, but I want you to do extra maths homework for your teacher."'she said. I rolled my eyes. "Okay, fine." I said and she left. I walked back over to Phil and sat next to him on the bed. "Extra maths homework?" He said whilst laughing. "Yeah, I usually stay home and she always gives me extra work to do. She says I need to keep my good grades up." I said whilst crossing my legs. "Oh, what are your grades like anyway?" He asked. "I'm usually one of the top people to score high in an exam or test. It's really embarrassing because you have to do a speech if you do get 100% and I'm........socially awkward." I said with an embarrassed grin. "Aww that's cute! I sometimes wish I was a ghost so I could go up to the person who was in an embarrassing situation and hug them to feel better." He said. He really was the kindest person I have ever met. He pulled me into a tight hug and kissed my forehead. "You missed." I said. He looked at me confused. I cupped his cheek with my hand and pressed my lips against his. I felt him smile throughout the kiss and that made me feel happy. He pulled away leaving me wanting more. "Phil...." I moaned. "Dan......" He moaned back. "Go and brush your teeth, you stink." He said. "Rood." I said. He got up and pulled me up with him. He pushed me into my bathroom and followed me in. Oh no....I forgot to hide the razor. I tried to hide it behind me but he got the picture as I started avoiding eye contact. "Dan, give it me please." I handed it to him and stared down at my scars. He lifted my chin up with his hand and stared into my eyes. I got lost in his and felt 1,000,000 times better. He connected our lips and pushed me back into my room. He pushed me against my wall and pinned my wrists by my sides. He pressed small kisses onto my neck. I tried to move but he was literally pushing me against the wall. "Phil...my mum might hear us." I said trying to fool him. "You're right....we should probably stop." He said letting go of my arms. I pushed him back and he landed on my bed. I straddled him and placed small kisses onto his neck. He had his hands through my hair. I kissed down on his lips several times. He sat up having me in his lap. He hugged me tightly and kissed back. I hugged him once more and got off his lap. "I love you Phil!" I said whilst settling into his chest. "To say that we've only known each other for two days, we already know everything about one other." He said with a smile. A sudden spark struck through me and I knew Phil would let me tell him this. "Phil." I said whilst sitting up. "Yeah?" He asked. "How did you find out you were gay?" I said. He looked into my eyes and started to talk. "Well I never really cared about girls growing up, I always used to make love eyes to all the boys. They called me 'Love Eyes Lester' and I had only been with one boy before. His name was PJ but we never really got along like we should have done. He started to deny my hugs and kisses. He broke my heart in the end as he got all his 'friends' to come and pick on me, call me names like faggot. And that's also why I hate that word!" He finished. "I would never do that to you Phil!" I said whilst giving him a hug. "I just wanted to find a person who would treat me normally." He said. This broke my heart. He had always wanted to be treated normally? That's the same with me. "Phil, you are far from normal, you're just unique! I would give up everything just for you. I mean it!" I said. He grabbed me and kissed me passionately. I kissed back. He pulled back and a tear ran down his cheek. "When I'm with you, I feel normal!" He said. "Phil....." I said whilst wiping his tear away. "You don't need me to be happy, but I need you!" I said and hugged him again. We were literally cuddle bugs. "Phil can I ask you a question?" I asked. "Sure!" He said. "Will you be my boyfriend?" I asked shyly. My eyes remained on the ground, embarrassed until Phil grabbed me and kissed me roughly on the lips. "I'll take that as a yes then." I said whilst laughing. He hugged me really tightly and I hugged back not breaking any connection.