Everyone talks about cutting people off, but no body talks about the grief in having to stand firm on that decision knowing it's not what you want, but it's what you need for your well being.
The guilt of ignoring you, Jungkook. Because I don't really know what's going on with me lately.
Another girl will make him happy, another girl will comfort him when he is at his lowest, another girl will play with him, another girl will hug him, another girl will kiss him, another girl will hug him whenever he needs it another girl will compliment him, another girl will love him, another girl will give him gifts, another girl will say good morning, good night, I love you, sleep well to him, another girl will love him better than I do and lastly another girl will meet his parents. That what my thoughts are at the moment I decided if I should do it or not.
I let you go just to let you love the fullest with another person than being miserable with me. I said while tears are rolling non-stop.
He cupped my cheeks and stared at my eye. " With all those thoughts that you imagined, you are the one that i want to do that with. You are and you will be the only one I want that to experience with"
"Now tell me Taehyung, do you forgot about me?" Jungkook asked
"Do you think I have forgotten about you?"
No, I never did.
There once was a song that I have dedicated to you. That everytime I hear it, you're the only that comes up to my mind. Everytime it plays it feels like a new emotion that i would like to live in. A song that is really not just a song for me. One that actually took my attention that it had made to be a dedication for someone who's special to me and that's you.
It replayed over and over again in my head. As much as I love the song or rather, I love the person I dedicated it to.
But now, whenever i hear this song. All I feel is regret. How come I let go someone who I love? Someone who was there at my lowest, during my darkest times. I tried to ignore it, but my guilt stays the same. It was all gone, it was all over. I was too coward and naive. That I pushed someone who loves and cares for me.
I admit, I was too afraid to bring you the sadness that I have. Too afraid to drain the positive energy that you holds.
When I hear it, I can feel pain. I can feel my heart shattering for the sudden flashback about the beautiful days being together, that those moments had turned into memories. My head starts to spin as I feel dizzy when the moments being together starts to play in. As if it can be a broken record.But just like my favorite book. I can always think back about those moments in my chapter. If my life was a book, in every parts you would've be included there.
At the blink of an eye, once my everything turned into nothing. It was like a spot that is full of parts, but a sudden it turns an empty part.
The feeling of being a puzzle. That something is missing, and I feel like a part of me is missing at all. That makes me incomplete.
If I were given a chance to rewrite, I would love to include you of every sentence that I write. I never believe in forever or greatest love. I never expect that a person can fall like this. I never expect that I'll fall for you like this. God knows how unromantic I am, but my point of view changed when I met you.
I never believed in love, often I found it stupid. But badly I feel the love I once thought is stupid. I felt love and I feel inlove.
I did let you go, as if I didn't wish for you to tell me not to. God knows how badly I want to end up with you, I wished that in every chapters I have is being with you.
I sometimes hope we'll find back it's way to go back the times that we have. To find our way back in the end.
Taehyung sincerely answered.
This part is base on real life experience of your author. If you're wondering which part, all of it. Especially the
" I never forget about you" this is actually a message for someone, someone I once loved. I know that person can't read this but I think it does match the story of this book.
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Love Won't Die
Short StoryA student who's willing to risk everything for academic validation as well facing problems about his self and family. He always feel pressured by himself but not from his parents, he is afraid to face the judgement of others. Not until he met someon...
