Love Won't Die

chapter 32

Taehyung's POV.

I'm now waking alone here while having my books with me not until it started to rain. Urgh this is so annoying and I don't even have an umbrella with me. Fastening my walks since it's already night and I don't have any chances to ride and uber since it's already night and this street is really not that lively even at day, especially at night. I just decided to visit this place earlier to clean my messed up mind. I can't stop worrying and thinking about him. So I decided to read my books under the tree. Even if I was reading under the tree earlier, everything just reminds me of him. Where he first brought me and confessed his feelings.

Out of a sudden a loud thunder can be heard accompanied with it's lighting. I was startled that it makes me to drop all my things up. I tried to pick my things up as this rain started to go heavier and it makes me soaking wet. I'm at the urge of crying not until I can feel someone presence with an umbrella and he's helping me to not get wet. After picking my things up I looked up to see the person but it made me froze in place as the lightning allowed me to see it's persons face. I could not believe what's happening right now. Is this even real? He's here? I stand up and tried to speak but he said something first.

"Let's go to my hotel, it's raining heavily and you'll get sick. You're already soaking wet." Jungkook said.

I just nodded my head in agreement comprehending everything that happened. We arrived at the hotel and some of the workers there are greeting him. We entered his room. He gave me a pair of clothing.

"Wear this. I don't want you to shiver. " He coldly said and handled me the cloth.

He went out to give me some privacy to change without having an audience. Yes, I did something wrong yet he's still a gentleman to me. After changing I waited a couple of minutes and I saw him entering and having some foods with him. We eat together peacefully and no one dared to speak. After eating he went to his balcony and I stared at his figure. I tried to approach him and stand beside him. The sound of the rain is still audible and it's scent is very comforting.

Then he started to talk first.

"I don't want to mention anything.We will not talk about everything that happens to us. After I was swallowed up and coaxed by time. Even in the dream, it didn't calm down at all. I just wanted to ask, your eyes that often lie. It's like it was just yesterday that you loved me. It is not expected that you will change like this, but even so. Do you even think about me? Because wherever you go. I'm looking for your face and maybe we'll meet again. Why, why did you left me? Why is it so hard to say the truth?
So that the misunderstanding can be discussed. Can you please tell me what's happening in your mind? Tell me what you're things of. So that there are no misconceptions. It's like you left so fast. When I made a mistake, so that I can make up for it? So that I can fix it. What are you looking for? How do we know? If you keep on running away from it. Was it the answer?"
He asked looking directly on my eye.

"I know my sorry is not enough for the damage that I caused. I know I can't fix what is already been broken. But it was never my intention to leave you without any words. It was never my intention to leave you for so long. But I have no other choice.  I just found out that the man that I'm with Will be marrying another woman. Someone who can give you a family. Yes, your father offered me a huge amount of money to let you go. But it was never my intention to accept that money just because it can benefit me. It was never about the digits. I just found out that my parents are suffering. My father and little sister can't even eat three times a day because of poverty. They are starving their selves while my mom is also suffering. She's experiencing cancer. As much as I don't want to accept the money. I ran away from everyone and went to my parents. Especially to my mother. She have no one beside her. She needs someone to be with. She hid her situation just to allow me live my life the fullest while she's slowly dying.  So I have no other choice but to leave my academics and work at the supermarket. Just to provide what my family need. I will be a horrible son if I just let them alone suffering. Not I got a call from someone. It says that my mother is ay the operating room fighting for it's own life. I cried my heart out waiting for her needing someone's presence but I have no one but just myself. I prayed for my mother. I prayed to let her live. Then I prayers were answered she had a successful operation but still need a medication that will need a huge amount of money. I want my mother to live and I don't want my sibling and father to starve so accept the money. After taking care of my family until they are stable I decided to move out of Korea because of guilt. Every place I go it reminds me of you. It does hurt me so damn well knowing I left someone who loves and who truly cares for me. Those times I'm so empty. But I can't let them know I'm physically, emotionally, and mentally suffering. As much as I want to. I just want to live with you. But it feels like I don't deserve you. I don't deserve your love.". I said

He pulled me into a tight hug and I let my self break but finally in his arms.

"My love, even if I'm in the ocean and the waves are rising again. Drowning in illusion. Love, only you. What my blind eyes see, only you. You're the light in the dark. Even if I lose you I just look straight north and meet the horizon of your mystery. You are still the destination.
I have gone against the wave, focused in your direction.The response to my climb.Stranded in the depths of the ocean. You're what I saw and lit my way and it guide me it's way to you. Whatever the weather. Even if I was suddenly blown away. There is no layer, I'm just heading towards you." Jungkook said.