Blue
2 months later
After the whole situation happened, my mom took me to the hospital & I was fine. But however my baby wasn't. Turns out I had a miscarriage due to problems with my placenta. Not gonna lie I'm sad as fuck. I actually wanted my baby. I had dreams of who my baby would look like & how sweet she would be. Yes I said she. I was gonna have a baby girl. Every since I had my miscarriage, I've been having nightmares of my baby. Dreams where she'd become some type of monster. But recently I have been dreaming about a little girl. She kinda looks like me & she keeps saying. "Don't worry sis I'll take care of her for you."
The words keep replaying in my head daily & nightly. I haven't told my mom bc I don't think it's that serious to tell her. She'll walk in & see me crying some nights but she just holds me & rocks me back to sleep. My mom has been my number 1 supporter. She's been acting more hurt than I am, which is strange. Speaking of my mom, here she comes.
"You okay?" I asked as I noticed mascara running down her face. "Yeah I'm fine. Are you?" She asked as I nodded. "Yeah. Have you talked to Nicki?" I asked as she shook her head slowly. "No, I broke up with her." She said lowly as I frowned. "Why?" I asked as she sighed.
"It's nothing Blue. Have you talked to Brooklyn?" She said. "Yeah & she told me that Nicki was crying bc of you. That's why I asked if you talked to her. Did she do something to you?" I said. "No." She said lowly again. "Then why'd you break up with her? Are you not ready for a relationship?" I asked.
Beyoncé
I sighed as I prepared myself to tell Blue. "Have you been having dreams?" I asked her as she nodded. "About a little girl?" I asked as she nodded again. "Yeah but what does this have to do with Nicki?" She asked. "Well before you or Brooklyn were born, Nic & I used to mess around with each other on the low. She ended up getting pregnant with our babygirl & we decided to name her Giselle. At this time I was not with your "father", or anything so yeah. But long story short, Nicki took Giselle to the park & at the time I used to be doing bad shit. Like selling & shit. I told Nicki I had stopped but I lied. So when they was at the park, it was some ppl that didn't rlly fw me show up. They started shooting & they shot Giselle. One time in her stomach, the other in her chest." I said as I felt more tears coming down.
"So that's the little girl in my dreams. She keeps telling me that my baby girl is gonna be okay & that she's gonna take care of her for me. She kinda looked like me so that's why I was a little confused. I thought it was just the after effects of a miscarriage. So let me guess. You blamed it on Nicki for the death of y'all child?" She asked as I hesitantly nodded.
"Yeah. For the longest I blamed her. We got through it but it still haunts me sometimes. I know it was my fault but I couldn't beat myself up about it so I just tried to move on from it. But it's hard. Especially now since you just lost your baby. It brings back memories. But that's the reason why I broke up with her. I sorta brung it up & we started arguing about it & I left." I said as she just nodded.
"You need to talk to her." Blue said as I sighed. "I know. Ima call her over. Hopefully it goes well." I said as she nodded. "Me too. Now to get your woman back mommaaaaaaaa." She dragged as I laughed. I went in her bathroom & fixed myself up & made myself look presentable.
Me- im sorry baby, can we talk?
Loml ♾️💍- i bet you are Beyoncé. & im busy
Me- stop all that, im serious. & you ain't doing shit so don't lie
Loml ♾️💍- whatever, I'll be over in 5
