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Recently , I have been staying out the way , I haven't even been attending school foreal just working , staking my money and chillin ..
I decided it was best if I just dropped out of school . I mean it's not like I had anyone to gain a diploma for , I was set up financially and I had my own shit so what was the point of attending that shitty ass school anyway ?
I was honestly feeling good about my decision because I had one less thing to worry about . I had kind of still been stressing about the whole TB thing , just watching my back more and being more careful with the jobs I took .
It's crazy because I felt like the nigga that got shot at the party , the one that Da ,Lani and me took to the hospital was TB .. I mean the only picture I had of him was the one my uncle showed me before we robbed his house but it was like some old ass cctv footage and looked all grainy and shit so I couldn't really make out his features .
Apparently the nigga had no social media and was rarely spotted out in public , like he was some type of ninja or something .. But that was the least of my worries .. I just hoped that it wasn't TB who we took to the hospital because then Lani would be involved and I cant risk something happening to her , especially because of me .
Maybe i was being paranoid..
I tend to get lost in my thoughts frequently and find myself stuck on the same thoughts for hours , and sometimes even days .. It was weird but I had been like this since I was a kid , and it had only gotten worse now that I was older ..
Losing my parents in my early teen years really had a big impact on me mentally because it made me constantly paranoid of losing other people close to me , I've never really had anyone except for my uncle , his wife , the guys and Lani . If I lost any of them , I would lose myself completely..
I hated getting in my head because it always resulted in me thinking all sad ,depressed and shi .. I decided I was going to get out of the house and go to the mall or sum so I wouldn't feel trapped in my thoughts all day ..
I made the decision to try and invite Mar and see if he wanted to ride along with me , maybe we could get over the tension between us and things could go back to how they were before .
I know for a fact that Mar knew he was wrong , he was just being stubborn , and he wanted somebody to kiss his ass and thats exactly what I wasn't finna do , thats why I had given him some space over the last two weeks .
I grabbed my phone that was sitting on my nightstand and opened it up going to Mar's contact , pressing the FaceTime icon .
It was around 3 so he should be out of school and at home already .
