"Okay, earpiece test in 3, 2, 1." Delia states before sending the earpiece noise through to the guys who all give her a thumbs up in response; Andy does so without looking in her direction. "Okay great, if you could go ahead and start with Wake Up so I can get the mix correct then we'll move onto Faithless to test the backing of the bell."
Just as the band started playing, that's when Shevy walks into the sound tech studio with 2 coffees and takes a seat next to Delia, a look of concern on the make up artist's face.
"How are you feeling today D?" Shevy asks "And please don't lie, I saw the tears you were fighting last night."
"Does it matter how I feel Shevy? Andy made his feelings very clear last night and even then I knew deep down it would never work between us anyway." Delia sighs. "Forgetting how cruel and unkind he can be, Andy will go back to Los Angeles and I'll return to Ohio, we'll be miles apart anyway."
"You know Andy is originally from Ohio, right? He's always going back to visit there." Shevy states.
"Shevy, I honestly don't care anymore, I'm done with him. I'm not going to keep torturing myself. I'm an idiot for even sleeping with the guy, whatever I'm feeling towards him I need to forget about it."
"You like him don't you?" Shevy smiles lightly.
"I do, I really do, and I know I shouldn't. Every single cell in my brain is screaming at me to let him go, but every fibre of my body almost begs for him to touch me again, not even for just sex. He makes out to be this guy who doesn't care for people and who doesn't believe in love, but sex with him he's so gentle and almost loving and that's what truly confuses me." Delia sighs turning back to look at the soundboard.
"Okay, I'm not going to ask more about the situation because you're starting to look upset and the last thing I want to do is make you cry. All I'm going to say though is just see what happens, maybe give him a chance to come to his senses. This tour he seems to be more willing and open with his emotions, something I haven't seen in a while, I like to think it's because of you." Shevy explains "If you need me I'll be backstage okay hun?"
"Okay, see you soon Shevy." Delia nods continuing to look at the different controls in front of her- her own voice accidentally holding its own form of monotone, why was she letting Andy get to her in this way?
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"So what's the plan after Seattle then boys?" CC asks "Are we getting drinks to celebrate the tour like always?"
"Is that such a good idea CC?" Lonny asks "With what's been going on in Seattle I'm not sure that's such a great idea."
"Nonsense, it'll be fine. We'll have security with us, plus if we stick together everything will be fine." CC tries to reassure the youngest member of the band.
Soundcheck finished about 10 minutes ago so everyone was just relaxing backstage before VIP started in 2 hours. Despite the conversations that had been happening in the room, the tension was still there; Andy's outburst yesterday made the group feel very awkward in the presence of both Andy and Delia, Shevy and Lonny feeling nothing but sorrow for their new friend whilst Jake, Jinxx and CC had guesses of what went down.
"I agree with Lonny, I'm not sure I'm fond of that idea CC." Shevy agrees with Lonny.
"Could we maybe talk about something other than Seattle please?" Delia speaks up whilst staring into space. All she could feel was Andy's eyes on her and she was trying desperately to ignore his gaze, if she looked at him she knew she'd crack.
"We better move from the conversation in case Delia faints again, I can't guarantee I'll be able to catch her this time." Andy mumbles loud enough for everyone to hear; Delia felt her heart shatter more. Why was he being like this? Was this all part of his game? To make Delia feel like she could possibly love him only for him to rip the platform from underneath her and leave her hanging for her life?
"I'll be back, I just remembered I need to make a call quickly." Delia stutters slightly before rushing out of the room, Andy's eyes of course following her whilst the rest of the band look at Andy in confusion. They were pleasantly surprised with hope to think that he was changing back to his old self, sadly it seemed that they were all wrong.
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"Delia honey, I thought you had a show today?" The voice of Delia's mum comes through the phone in shock and happiness.
"Yeah, we do." Delia smiles sadly as she speaks through the phone. "Mum, I think I've made a mistake." It's then that Delia feels the tears start to roll down her cheeks; Delia has always been close to her mum, she would always talk gossip and men with her. Her favourite memory is how her mum would always make her a hot drink they would both share biscuits whilst sharing the news that had occurred, her mum was always the best at giving advice- it was even her mum were convinced her to take this job, insisting she would have the best time and gain valuable experience from it.
"Oh Petal, what's happened? I'm sure you've done nothing wrong." Her mum coos over the phone; this would be when her mum would wrap her up into a hug if they were together in person.
"I had sex with the lead singer and... I think I've grown to like him." Delia admits letting out a broken sigh.
"Oh petal, I wouldn't call that a mistake." Delia's mum was always an optimist in situations like this "Trust me when I say that most people who sleep together end up catching feelings for one another, chances are he probably feels the same."
"But he doesn't mum." Delia whimpers as she feels more tears fall down her cheeks "I feel like an idiot, I knew he didn't do commitment yet I put myself in that position."
"How many times has it been Delia?" Her mum was never one where things were too much information, she never judged, Delia had always been able to share things from the first time she had her period to when she lost her virginity and panicked about contraception and safe sex.
"Twice." Delia admits.
"Okay, well I would advise on not sleeping with him again and let him make the next move. But most men who are noncommittal don't often sleep with the same person more than once." Delia's mum always was a voice of reason, always trying to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
"It hurts mum, he's said some really hurtful things and it's hard to hide that I'm not affected when really I am." Delia cries before telling her mum about yesterday's outburst.
"Do you want the truth Delia?" her mum asks her, her silence confirming to her mum that she in fact did want the truth, no matter how hard it may be to hear. "I think he's damaged Petal and people do weird things when they are damaged. From what you've told me it seems that he holds an interest in you, but he's likely battling with his head."
"What do I do mum?" Delia asks.
"Don't overthink it. Let him come to you. If he truly does hold interest, which I believe he does, he needs time to win the battle in his head. Sometimes our mind can be our own biggest enemy." Delia's mum states.
"Yeah, maybe you're right." Delia nods even though she knew that her mum could not see such a gesture. "I erm, I should head back. The VIP starts soon then we have the show."
"Yes, of course, good luck dear. I'll see you next week when you're home."
"I'll see you next week mum."
Time is what we want most but what we use worst. Life teaches us to make good use of time while time teaches us of the value of life.
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Ribcage- Andy Biersack/ Black Veil Brides
Fanfiction"There's one thing you should know about me Delia Vincent, I don't date. Got no heart to break and emptiness is safe, keep it that way." He was adamant in his choices... ...But then things changed.
