No More.
I was pierced to my heart's
most sensitive core with the fear of losing you.
I was a panicked fool,
throwing reason and caution and sense to the destructive winds that blew through.
When you disappeared,
I was afraid and plagued with pain,
I wanted to follow you like the pitiful, wounded stray that I was.
I reached out awkwardly,
stupidly,
not knowing what words to use,
not knowing how to say I only wanted a few seconds of your time,
only a few meagre words,
only a quick smile that reached your eyes.
I tried calling out to you,
but only silence returned my pleas,
only silence answered me,
silence told me things-
silence mocked me,
silence screamed at me to go away,
and after waiting and waiting,
I finally understood.
I turned and went on my way-
sadder than before,
lonelier than before,
more wounded than before,
more cautious,
more fearful,
quieter than before...
And I told myself-
I shall bother you no more,
I shall reach out no more,
I shall hold out hope no more,
I shall speak of you no more.
No more. No more.
I shall stay in my own path and bother you no more.
