I'm Still Me

Chapter Four

(Nate's POV)

She has been holed up in our room for the past two weeks. I haven't been up to see her since our last fight. It seems like that is all we have been doing since we found each other. I just don't understand how she could stop loving me. I know I walked away five years ago, but I had no choice. In fact, it took five years for my parents to accept that Jessica, a witch, is my mate. Now that they finally accept her, all she wants to do is leave me. Although strangely enough, she hasn't tried to escape since I brought her back from Dylan's pack house. Yes, I am on a first name basis with him. Ever since the little incident with my mate, we have been talking. We are becoming friends. I told him about my past with Jessica, and he told me I was so stupid. He actually understands why she hates me. He won't tell me, though. It is kinda beginning to piss me off.

"Nate,"I look up to see my father standing there looking pissed off,"Why the hell have you stopped eating and sleeping? It has been three weeks. It is time you suck it up and go up there and work this out with her. I don't like watching my son act like a complete and utter douche bag."

My eyebrows shoot up at my dads insult. "Douche bag?"I asked in surprise.

"Well that's what you are,"he said shaking his head,"You need to get used to being the one to apologize, because we all know she won't be the one to do it."

"But I haven't done anything wrong,"I replied.

"You make think you are innocent,"my dad smirks at me,"But she doesn't think so. And son, it's what she thinks that matters."

I watch as he walks out of the room and towards the kitchen. I know he's right, but what am I suppose to say? To say she hates me is a huge understatement. She absolutely loathes me. I know I am being a coward, but I can't lose her. It would completely destroy me. She may not have realized this, but we are already halfway done with the mating process. Yeah, I know what you are gonna say, but we were teenagers when we dated. The last part of the mating process will not be done for awhile. I mean, there is no way she will let me mark her, much less want me to. I know it sounds painful, but really it's not.

Sighing, I get out of my chair and head towards our room. Stopping outside the door, I decide to knock. Maybe that will help her mood.

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(Jessica's POV)

I can't believe he hasn't come to see me in three weeks. I mean, yeah, I'm pissed at him for leaving me five years ago, but he is my mate and I know we are halfway mated. All he has to do is mark me and we will be mated. In truth, I want him to mark me. I don't know when I will get the chance to tell him, though. By the way, in the past few weeks, Nate's mother came to visit me and explained why he abandoned me all those years ago. She also told me that Nate hasn't eaten since our last fight. When I see him again, I am gonna go all bat shit crazy on his ass. I mean, what the fuck is he....

A knock on the door broke into my thoughts. I knew who it was the second it sounded. With a shaky voice I say,"Come in, Nate. I can't open the damn door myself."

"Sorry,"he said walking in with his eyes looking at the floor. What the fuck is wrong with him? He looks...... vulnerable? Shit! I have never seen him like this before in my life.

"Nate,"I said,"Look at me."

Slowly, his eyes look up at me, and as soon as they do, his eyebrows shoot up. He is now full on studying me. I know I look like shit, but that's because I haven't been able to move from the chair I have been sitting in for the past three weeks. I mean, yeah, I would go pee and everything, but I haven't had the energy to take a shower or change. The next thing I know, he is kneeling in front of me looking into my eyes.

"Have you been eating and sleeping?"he asked it in a gentle voice, but I know he is a little upset.

"No,"I whispered.

"Why?"he asked softly.

"Because no matter how mad I am at you,"I started,"I couldn't eat or sleep when I know you are in this house, but haven't come to see me."

"Jessica?"he said looking a little nervous.

"Yeah?"I asked.

"Did you break the magic barrier?"he asked this kind of shakily like he was trying not to laugh.

"Yes,"I replied looking away in embarrassment.

"Why didn't you try to leave?"he asked. Now he is just being curious.

"Because,"I said unable to continue.

"Because what?"he asked a little impatient.

"BecauseIcouldn'tbearthethoughtofleavingyou,"I said really fast.

"What?"he asked in confusion.

"BECAUSE  I COULDN'T BEAR THE THOUGHT OF LEAVING YOU,"I yelled it at him. Before I could think about the embarrassing fact that I had said that out loud, he pulled me into his arms and sat down on the bed. I could hear his heart racing a million beats a minute, and I know mine was beating just as fast. It felt so good to be in his arms again. I felt safe, happy, and warm. I know I am being all mushy gushy and disgusting, but I truly feel like that.

"I'm glad you didn't leave,"he whispered into my ear,"But you really shouldn't have said that. I was barely keeping myself from finishing the mating process. Yes, I know we already halfway completed it."

"Mark... Ah,"I screamed as his teeth sunk into my neck. Okay, so I wasn't expecting him to do that while I was talking. A second later, he pulled back and looked me in the eyes. I hit him in the chest.

"Why did you do that without warning me?"I asked him.

"I did warn you,"he said looking taken aback.

"No you didn't,"I said getting frustrated.

"Yes I did,"he said starting to get annoyed. We kept going back and forth like that for the next ten minutes until he got pissed off and kissed me on the lips effectively shutting me up. It was rough and passionate like he was trying to take his anger towards me out in that kiss. Not that I minded, of course. A few minutes later, we broke apart for air. We were both breathing heavily and our hearts were beating so hard I thought they rip out of our rib cages anytime now. He was looking at me with all the love in the world, and it made me remember what I've wanted to tell him for the past two weeks.

"I love you,"I said with a smile on my face before pulling him back into a kiss.

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A/N

So I know that I have updated two days in a roll, but don't get used to it. I will start updating this book once a week if I have time. And just so you know, this story has quite a few more chapters left and I plan on making an epilogue at the end. I know I hate doing author's notes, so I will not be doing these unless I have something to say. If you have any questions comment below or DM me. I will reply when I see them. I love you guys and hope you don't hate me too much once I finish the book. And FYI, I will explain about what happened over the past five years when they were away from each other. And no, neither one of them have any exes that are gonna come back to break them apart. Anyways, vote, comment, and share.

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