See You In Heaven

My comfort Zone

My name is jonathan and today I just received a scholarship from goldenknight high school

This morning when I opened my computer to take a look at my school schedule as usual, something popped in the bottom of my screen and it captured all my attention, it's just then that I realised it was an email sent by the golden school , by the director himself! When I first started to read the mail of goldenknight I could hardly believe that it was real , I had to pinch myself just to be sure it wasn't a dream,I couldn't understand either why such a classy and fancy school wanted me to joined them, that makes no sense to me, and the more I tough of it, the more I wonder what this school could bring me, expect for losing sight of my own person,these spoiled kids have nothing to do with me,what would it benefit me to accept this offer. Suddenly the phone house rang And I could hear my father talking, I easily understood what this call was about, this was mr.Knight on the phone and they were talking about me, I very quickly went upstair, but it was already too late when I arrived,I abruptely faced my dad right in the eyes, he was standing in the kitcchen with that same serious expressiion he always has, then he took a step closer to me , I could notice tears coming out of his eyes, I was trully terrified when suddenly He took me in his arm, slapping my back with a very firm hand, for the first time in so many years, he seemed to finally see me, he then told me he was sincerly proud,Knowing I have a bright future and great opportunity coming my way, I never tought I'd hear this from him, I was crying from the inside, hardly believing what just happened,even my brother hugged me that night,We also sat down and eat all 4 together as we were a family, I still tought of mom But after this day I realised Juliette wasn't so bad finally, she's been trying for years to get along with me, I should have given her a chance sooner, we laughed and talked all night, it just felt so good and comfortable, that was such a precious moment, a memory I can never forget,Paradise Has been cut off when we heard a noise at the door, someone was knocking , when I opened it, luke was standing in front of the door, his eyes were all buffy and red as if he's had cried, I asked him if he was fine then He fell in my arms craving for a hug and started crying, my happines from today felt totally broken seing my best friend in that state was devastating, luke never cries, he's always the one cheering me up,I felt like the all world had stopped turning and I just just wanted to not let go of him, I wanted so hard to stole his oain away,so he'll feel safe, I took his hand, gluing our fingers together and lay off my the other one in his hair,so I could pat his head, we walked together upstairs to my room in a killing silence, as we sat down on my small bed, he just started play with the blanket, Avoiding eyes contact with md, he looked down still letting go some tears on all my bedsheets, I knew how he was, he doesn't' want others to know about his weakness, he always care so much about others like he doesnt want others to think any badly of him, Then I did what I had to do to make him safe,I've put my hand on his shoulder and asked him to look at me, when he finally glanced in my way, diving his beautiful glassy eyes into mine, i told him " stop pretending you're okay luke, When you're with me, you can say anything you like, nothing will ever make me think you're weak or anything like that" I saw his pupil extanding as he heard my words, his eyes still focused in mine he finally smiled,I instantly felt like he was finally ready to talk to me, then he did told me about his parents getting divorced, even tought were 16, I can relate to how much pain he was going trough, regarding how united luke's family has always been, I always envyed them for being such a strong and comfortable family, it hurted me too in some ways, As I always considered them a second family, but No matter how hurt I was, he was thousands of times more hurt than I was,so all I could do Right at this moment is to be by his side the same way he's been for me 8 years ago, we both layed down on the bed and we hugged all night, we hadn't huged while sleeping for about 2 years but we both needed it so bad this night, when I woke up the next morning I knew at some point I would have to tell him about the offer but as I was comtempling at his perfect and gorgeous feature, his puffy cheek,his sculpted glossy lips his long hair hiding his pretty eyes, I delicately pulled a lock of hair behind his ears, He looked so peaceful and adorable sleeping next to me, I just couldn't find the right way to tell my best friend we wouldn't be having breakfest together, we wouldn't be going to school together, we wouldn't get to live next to each other, we wouldn't have sleepovers and watch horror movies together as often as we did all these years, we won't be studying together each night anymore, and we wouldn't walk next to each other in the hallaway anymore, Is it because i dont wanna tell him or because I dont want it to be that way? Everything seemed so clear yesterday after the moment I spent with my family, till I saw him and realise we'd be separated, I can't give up on this opportunity just for him and I know that, I always kinda knew at one point we were going to grow up and things would have to change but I never tought it would happen so fast and mostly at one of the worst moment of his life, I just wanted him to put on his beautiful smile again, will there ever be a good moment to tell him..?