See You In Heaven

Best friend forever

My name is luke and today's the worst day of my all life

I've felt like things were a little weird at home these last weeks, my parents wouldn't talk to each other much, unless it's about something important, they both looked at me weirdly everyday, I could feel that something wad off but they both wouldn't let me knoe,  like they wanna tell me something but can't gather the courage to do it, everything seems different,they go to sleep so early, and everytime I woke up in the morning, my mom is already gone to work, we won't eat together a lot these days, so there was  this one night I wanted to cool down the atmosphere, I asked them if there was anything wrong that I should know about, thinking we could sort things out together as a family since that's what we've always done but I wasn't prepared for what happened after my question,  they anounce me they were going to divorce, at first, I complety froze hearing that news, I felt lost, and scared,a bunch of mixed emotions were invading my mind, I first asked them if it was my fault, even tho rhey promised it had nothing to do with me I couldn't help but ran away in my room  without saying a word,I really tried to reasure them, and be the supporting son they probably expected me to be at this moment But my lips were stuck together, at this point it's just someone I couldn't be, this time I was the one who needed ro be reasured,I know it might sounds a bit overexagerated and egoist for a 16 years old  but My parents have always been my roch, I've always wanted a love story like theirs, I tought they were going to grow old together,seated on their rocking chair enjoyng thw view form the porch  and that they would be taking care of each other when I'd left home, to me that sounded so unreal, it left me heartbroken, all I wanted to do at the moment is to see jonathan,just the sound of his voice would heal me even a little,but what would he think of me crying like a baby cause my parents are breaking up, he'll think i'm stupid and childish. no matter how terrified I was, I needed him deeply, as soon as he opened the door,I felt safer and warmer, like his arm was the only place I wanted be , I should Have known jo would never judge me or think any less of me cause that's just how amazing he is, sleeping  down in his arms after 2 years felt like the best feeling in the whole world.The next morning I opened my eyes while jonathan was putting my hair behind my ear, my heart litteraly came out my belly, and butterflies were flying all across the room, I'm just they could hear me giggling from the other side of the city, I closed my eyes again pretending to be sleeping still, hoping this moment would never end, but my mouth  just couldn't hide itself I pulled off a nervous smile, he then pinched me on the forhead acusing me of fake sleeping, which I totally was, and then messed my hair up, then we both laugh and went back to hugging a little before going back to reality, this moment trully felt sureal for me, I wished the time had stopped, Felt like there was just the two of us in the world

My name is Jonathan and this is my first dat at goldenknight

2 months passed since luke's parents have annouce their separation, As we were outside riding our bikes, I abruptely stopped and then luke asked me if something was bothering me, I nervously told him "promise me we'll always be bestfriend no matter what happens" I could feel the incomprehension and  panick  in his shaky voice

L- you're scaring me jo, is everything fine? Are you having trouble

As I looked at him right in the eyes I felt sad and torned apart as the tears wanted to come off my eyes

J- I'm leaving, luke.

L- wh..what do you mean you're leaving, jo if something happened, just tell me we'll face it together as always

J- it's not anything like that luke, I...

L- You're really scaring me now Jo! (I could litteraly see the tears sliding trought his nose and mouth)

J- I've received a scholarship from goldenknight, i'll be moving in the dormitory in two weeks..

L- you... You're kidding right (he's looking at me deeply reaching for me to comfort him by my words but this time, I can't do it)

J- I'm sorry luke, but.. if you'd seen how my father looked at me, He was trully proud, for real this time, I just can't let go this opprtunity..

He just turned his back on me and started to slowly walk next to his bike, we've been silent the all way back home and once we arrived in front of his house he couldn't even looked at me in the eyes, he was just going to go inside without saying a  single word but I didn't want to end up things like this tonight..

J- do you hate me luke ?

He stopped out of shock and turned to stare at me, our eyes locked, and we both froze, unable to speak, we just stood there, silently losing control of our own body, but then he broke the silence

L- of course not, I could never... I just need time jo

Then I just sadly agreed to what he's told me, i understood him and Was ready to give him all the time he needed but I was still hurt by the idea of him being mad at me, I couldn't face him and I was looking at the floor when he started walking in my direction and hugged me, then he whispered in my ears

L- I  just want you to know ,I am also very proud of you.

I couldn't explain the feeling that's been surounding me at this ecxact moment but his word make me feel alive again, getting aprovement from him, knowing it wasn't the end for us, as I was about to leave he took my hand in such a delicate way, his skin felt so gentle,  I kind of got the chill,I was totally experiencing a new feeling,it wasn't a bad one, just a new one, a good one,Even tho I couldn't Explain it corectly, this is something I had never felt before with anyone, but that still felt very familiar and pleasant,my stomach was hurting a little,how i felt toward my friend holding my hand for sure confused me a whole lot

L- You won't forget about us when You'll be there right? He told me while I was still frigthen by our touch

This is not the first time luke as used the word "us" to talk about our friendship but Usually I don't react this way to it, this time my ear was siling, it felt like it had a different meaning this time, it felt awkward but enjoyable at the same time,for once I was the one who reached for his word to comfort me, and he did .