Han had woke up feeling a little bit under the weather he thought it was just a cold, so he shrugged it off. But little did he know that it would later turn into uncontrollable fear.
Han pov
I woke up feeling a little bit shakey and I had a headache. I thought that maybe I was just coming down with a cold due to filming all day in the cold and wet yesterday. Later, I ate my breakfast and took some paracetamol for my headache, and got ready for a long day of dancing and singing in preparation for our upcoming tour in Europe. When I arrived at the company building, the shaking had gotten worse it was then when I realised that I had forgotten to take my anxiety medication. Great, a long day is just going to be even longer now
Lee knows pov
When we arrived at the company, I couldn't help but notice that something wasn't quite right with had. I thought that maybe he was just feeling a bit ill after filming in the rain yesterday, so I just let it go. Later, we had just finished running through the dance for maniac, so u went up to han. "Are you ok?" I asked. "Yeah, hyung. I just have a bit of a headache, " He replied. "I'll ask chan once we've finished the first half of rehearsal whether we can have a break," I said. "Ok, hyung," I replied. After two hours of dancing, I went up to chan to ask him if we could have a break he just said yes. After talking through our plans for the next few weeks, chan came up to me. "Is everything alright with han?" he asked. "Yeah, he just had a headache and needed some water.
Chan pov
When we were rehersing the dance for maniac, I noticed that something was up with han. When we had stopped, Lee know came up to me and asked if we could have a break. Of course, I said yes. After I had made sure everyone was OK with the schedule for the next few weeks, I went to Lee know to see if he knew what was up with han he just said that he had a headache and needed some water so I just agreed. An hour later, I told everyone it was time to start rehersing again.
I.N pov
During our dance practice, I couldn't help but notice that han was struggling to focus, and he kept losing balance and tripping over. After dancing for two hours straight, chan hyung let us have a break, and we talked over our plans for the next couple of weeks but han kept zoning out through out the hour we had for a break. About an hour later, chan hyung stopped us again so we could have a ten minute water break, so I went up to han hyung. "Are you ok, hyung?" I asked him. "Yh, just a bit shakey," he said. "Is your anxiety playing up?" I asked. He just nodded. A few minutes later, chan told us it was time to get back to practising, but when we started, han was really struggling to keep up with everyone.
Han pov
Once we got back to practising, I felt my body become more tense and shakey, and my heart was racing and it continued like this for the next three hours until our next break. After dancing for three hours straight chan aloud us to have another break I excused myself to the bathroom. When I got to the bathroom, the shaking intensified my heart felt as though it was pound out of my chest. I started to hyperventilate as I slowly felt myself slide down the wall onto the floor
I.N pov
It had been about fifteen minutes since han hyung left to go to the bathroom. "Channie hyung it's been a while since han left I'm going to go check on him" I said as I got up to leave the room. "Ok" chan responded. I left the studio and headed to the bathroom. When I got in the bathroom I saw han sat on the floor curled up in a ball. "Hyung" I said softly. He just looked up at me and tried to stop himself from cry as he tried to put on a brave face. "Hyung don't try to hide your feelings" I said whilst sitting down on the floor next to him. "But nobody has ever seen me like this" He whimpered. "I know but it's not good to hold in your feelings as it might make them worse" I said in a comforting tone. " I know but I didn't want anyone to see me as weak" He sobbed. "Noone will see you as weak. In fact I think you are incredibly brave for showing your vulnerable side" I said as he just continued to sob and hyperventilate but I could feel his heart rate flying through the roof. "Hyung to you want to go somewhere a bit more comfortable and talk about what's going on" He just nodded. "Come on then" I said helping up from the floor.
Han pov
It had been a few minutes since the panic attack had started and nothing I tried to stop it had work. Is this ever going to end, it doesn't normally last this long I thought to myself. About ten minutes later I hear the bathroom door open and I heard a familiar voice it was I.N . "Hyung" I heard him say softly as I just looked at him trying to hide the fact that I'm not Ok and put on a brave face. "Hyung don't hide your feelings" He said but I just told him that this is the first time anyone had seen me have a panic attack. "But it's not good to hide your feelings" He said as he hugged me. I just told him that I didn't want anyone to see me as weak. He said that no-one will see me as weak and that I'm brave for showing my vulnerable side. But all I could do was sob. A couple minutes later he asked if I wanted to go somewhere a bit more comfortable I just nodded.
When we got to the cafe I.N justlooke at me and asked. "Hyung can you tell me why you feel this way" . "I don't know why maybe it's because I'm tired or because I'm stressed or worried about the tour in a couple of weeks or because I forgot to take my medicine this morning " I just said whilst I continued to sob and breathe heavily. "Ok hyung I need you to try and take some deep breathes for me" He said as he grabbed my hand in an attempt to comfort me. "I can't" I said. Just then I hear the rest of my member running up to me.
Felix pov
"Chan hyung it's been an hour since jeongin and han left do you think we should go check on them" I asked him. " yeah" He said as we all got up and left the dance studio. As we where walking past the cafe I heard someone whimpering in the cafe when I saw I.n comforting han. "Guys they're in here" I said to the rest of the members. When we walked in the cafe I noticed that han was crying and hyperventilating. We walked over to them and lee know asked han what was wrong. "Han what wrong" lee know said concerned. "He's having a panic attack" I.N responded as han was in know state to talk. "Oh buddy" chan said as he rubbed hans back.
I.N pov
When the members arrived I told them what was wrong with han and that he's been like this for over an hour and that I didn't know what to do other than go somewhere quiet an see if han wanted to talk about what was going on. They all told me that I done the right thing and the lee know went and sat next to han and hugged him. After another hour han eventually calmed down whilst chan hyung spoke to the manager to see if we could end the day short and go home so han could rest the manager said that we could go home. When we got home han went straight to his room and started to crying again. I knocked on the door. "Come in" I heard him say. "Why are you crying hyung" I asked him. "I'm just so lucky to have members like you that won't judge me when I'm having a panic attack" He sobbed. "Aww bless you and I'm lucky to have a hyung like you who isn't afraid to so his vulnerable side.
The next morning han woke up and sat in the living room waiting for everyone to wake up. When everyone was up han got up of the couch and hugged every member one by one and told them that he was thankful that all of them where so understanding yesterday. I just told him jokingly to remember to take his medication.
