The way she makes me feel

five

About 3 weeks after...

Sofia

"Billie, stop being so paranoid! It was a fucking Party!" I screamed

"It was not just a party! I saw you leaving in another room with someone! Just the fuck tell me what you did in there!!"

I could tell she assumed that I hooked up with a random dude in there, but I didn't, I sold him some drugs. Nothing special for me, but I can't tell her because I don't know how, and I don't know if I would ruin what we have.

"Billie, please. I did not hook up with that dude I just-" I stopped myself.

"You just what?? TELL ME NOW!" she raised her voice.

I can't. I really can't tell her. I want to, but it's too risky.

"Hello? Will you answer me?" She asked, angry

"I can't tell you. I did my job!" I jelled

"Then tell me your fucking job, is it that hard? Are you a slut or why are you keep going in rooms with randoms on party's??" I could see it hurt her and she's tearing but she's trying to fight it.

"Please, mogliea.. I'm so very sorry.." I started to cry, I couldn't help it.

"If your so sorry, tell me what the fuck your job is!"

"I- I can't." I stutter.

"You know what?! I'm tired of this shit! If your ready to tell me what the fuck is wrong with you then talk! Otherwise, I'll leave, and I will make sure not to see or talk to you till you tell me." She screamed at me and left the room slamming the door.

I stood there realizing I made her ignore me now. I'm so stupid for doing that. Why did I even do that?

I laid in my bed crying the whole time listening to the song I secretly recorded. It was hers. She showed me some days ago. I listened to it on repeat till my phone Rang.

I looked at the caller ID in hope of seeing that it was her, but no. It was Max.
I answered it anyway.

"Eyo sofia, what's up? Wanna join us? we're out at the see chilling!"

"Sure, dude, I'll be over in some minutes."

I ended the call to avoid him asking me more questions and packed my stuff to go.

"Eyo max, im leaving. It's getting late, and I'm too drunk to drive, so have a good night, dude. " I talked and shook his hand to leave.

I stumbled my way home. On the way, I had the idea to go to my favorite place to watch the sunset. I arrived there, and there it was. The cliff, the beautiful sun and the memory of billie and my first kiss, what made me tear up instantly.

I sat down on the edge and just watched the sun, thinking.

"Why can't I tell billie how much I love her.."I mumbled to myself drunk.

"GOD SHES MY EVERITHING!!" I screamed towards the sun.

I fell asleep a few minutes after.

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Billie

It's day four of not talking or seeing or even texting Sofia.
I caught myself looking at My phone every fucking minute to see if she texted me. But nothing.

"Hey, Bill.. want something to eat?" Finn asked me with a sad look on his face, knowing what's going on.

"No thanks, I'm not hungry." I answered quietly, my head buried into the pillow that Sofia would normally sleep on.

"You haven't had anything to eat since I dunno 3 days?" He spoke

"Uh, really? I haven't noticed, " I said, not moving a muscle.

"Please eat, Okey?" He tried to convince me to.

"Uhu," I gave him back with no emotion in my voice.

I should really eat. I got up, looking straight in the mirror across my room, where I could see myself, looking horrible. I looked like a fucked up peace of shit, to be honest. My hair is in a messy bun. I'm wearing an overzied T-shirt, of course one Sofia forgot here, and my eyes all red and swollen.

I went to the kitchen, looking into the fridge.

"Finn, we don't have anything delicious here." I talked towards the sofa.

A head looking like finneas showed up, and he said:"Should I cook you something delicious then?"

"If you want to,"

After I finished eating, I went back to my room.
I looked at my phone again. But as always, nothing.
I decided to sleep a bit because I couldn't sleep for about 2 days now and only got 4 hours of sleep in this time.

It's been a week now since the argument and im getting kinda worried. I rushed down the stairs to see if finneas is awake because it's like 2 in the morning. He is.

"Finn? Can you maybe text Sofia and ask if she's alright? Please." I asked with my best puppy face.

"Billie, you have to do that yourself. You can't just ignore her but be worried about her. It's been a week now since your ass is stuck in that room. I know you're missing her and stuff, so just manage to do that yourself. He said.

"But-"

"No billie, do. it. yourself." He cutted me off.

I went back to my room, staring at my phone and the opened chat between me and her. I have no idea what to say.

Sofia❤️

Hey, it's been a week since I ignored you. And I'm sorry, are you okay? Can we talk?

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No answer.

Maby she needs her time?

It's a bit shorter than the other chapters but be patient

Hope you like it!❤️

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