The Past Year

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by lizzy3545

by lizzy3545

Something that I like to do at the end f every holiday is look back to where I was a year ago. I look at the good and bad, the happy tears and the sad. It's emotionally stabilizing for me because I was such a wreck last year. After you read this chapter do the same. Oh and happy 4th everyone!

*SAP ALERT YOU'VE BEEN WARNED*
In a whole year I've lost best friends, married parents, hair colors, and a house. In a whole year I've gained best friends, an album, an audition to AGT,confidence, hair colors, and a house. I've had rough spots with no one helping me through them, I've had rougher spots with an army of helpers. These past few months have been better than any months of my 14 years of living. I've been happy and sad, I've cried tears of laughter and tears of pain. I'm happier then ever, maybe it's the people I have around me, maybe it's taking off a mask that I've been wearing for years. And maybe it's just been me, focusing on the good that comes my way. Tonight I danced under the stars and pouring rain, sang at the top of my lungs, and watched beautiful fireworks. Not everyone I love could be there with me, but that's life right?

I met so many amazing people and reached new goals that inspire me to do better. The Wattpad community has had a very big influence on my life and I'm very sad to say I'm thinking about not writing anymore.

With so much negative energy being excluded its tearing me down. Its not the Wattpad people, but people in general. I'm the type of person who needs support and praise to continue what I'm doing, because all the positive energy makes me want to do more. Currently I have a total of 4 people who support me with what I'm trying to do.

I know in time the group might grow bigger but with 65 followers here, 100 on Instagram, 200 and something friends on Facebook, a family of 4, and a large group of friends, you'd think I'd be going crazy from all the support.

I don't want to give up what I love, but at some point the dream of standing on a stage and singing my heart out will turn into an inside joke between my friends and I.

If you're going through something similar listen up. People who aren't happy for you at any time you're happy, ditch them. I've lost so many people because of this issue. You're better off without them, so spend a little bit if time alone.

I used to be such a social butterfly, but after I moved I lost a lot of friends, well "friends", but I got so much love from my new friends. I spent 3 years with the same tight knit group and never felt as happy as I did when I spent 5 months with varying groups of friends.

Picture up top is me truly happy. It feels great to not fake a smile. one thing I've learned throughout this years is your happiness depends on the people you surround yourself with. so remember that.

Xoxoxo Tørì