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Forgiveness

It's amazing that no matter what, we can always repent to God and he will forgive us. He will always be there and will love us no matter what. I fall so many times that I feel like I'm useless and that God will never be able to use me after all that I've done. I fail him everyday. They weren't just little mistakes to me, they ate at me and everyday I would feel guilty and uneasy for what I have done. I knew what I did was wrong and yet I still kept going back to it. It was like a drug that I couldn't give up. No matter how hard I tried to break free, I still ended up where I started. I knew I needed help. The harder I tried to keep myself away from certain things and certain people, the enemy was still in the back of my mind tempting me and convincing me that it was okay. I fought and finally I told someone about my struggles that I was facing and the mistakes I've made and how I hated myself for it, but the worst thing I could of done was hate myself. I was in the wrong, but I couldn't beat myself up over it. I had to forgive myself. God made me in his image and he made me for a purpose. He had a calling for me and by putting myself down and harming myself, wouldn't have been the right decision. Everyday, I face battles of this world. I know better, yet I fall at times because I'm human, but I get back up and fight. I no longer put myself down because saying that I'm not good enough is offensive to God, because that's saying he made something useless and I know God knew what he was doing when he made you and I. I'm reminded of my mistakes, but that's where I came from and of course we all learn from our mistakes. I certainly have learned at lot and it only made me stronger and closer to God today. Instead of putting someone down for being wrong, help one another out. I'm blessed that I've had my family and friends to help me back up and especially grateful that God was with me and loved me no matter what. It's because of God that I am here breathing today. I am truly blessed beyond measure. In addition, I still have a hard time dealing with things from the past because it says u reap what you sow and that's just something I have to go through. It won't always be easy living for God, but I've made my mind up that I'm in it till the end and I will fight and stand up no matter what comes my way. And one day it will all be worth it. For what does a man profit when he gains the whole world, but loses his soul?