Ephemeral and Sempiternal. (A collection of poetry from 2015)

Something I Wrote A Long Time Ago. It's Funny How Quickly Things Change.

Sadness is the incurable disease of our race,
Our nation,
Our lives and how we play them.

And if for one tiny moment,
In my fleeting existence,
The small time I'm here,
Before I'm gone in an instance.
If I can change how you think,
If I can make it seem worth it,
Then for once my weak heart,
Might just be perfect.

Humans are trapped inside a shell of pain and torment.
And not only weighed down by gravity,
But people who think they deserve us.

And I know life's been rough,
Those people knocked you down,
No one was there when you fell to the ground.
You lacked a true friend,
A companion to trust,
And when I came in I just broke your poor heart.

You trusted me,
You loved me,
You gave me a start.
And I saw a person I thought was pure art.
You were an enigma,
A challenge,
Extremely reclusive.
But you let me in for a one time exclusive.

And once I was in I saw who you were,
I saw a new boy who was changed from before.
I saw someone gentle,
I saw someone kind.
I saw a small child who was trying to fly.

And it's scary to know I can make such a difference,
To break down your walls and lift up your spirits.
It's scary to know that I mattered so much.
But I'm glad,
I'm so glad,
That you gave me your trust.

We both made mistakes and we both have regrets,
We both wish that this didn't come to an end.
Relationships grow and people grow with them,
And lonely, dark ends have hope for beginnings.

And with positivity or negativity I know you'll let go,
Because you're one of the strongest guys that I know.

Maybe it was love in the purest of forms,
And maybe it hurts when you think back and mourn.
"I should have done this, I could have been better."
The what if's and but's,
They don't even matter.

The past is the past,
So we look to the future.
It's what we make,
It's what we shape,
It can all be much better.

All of our pain and tears,
It starts to just mound,
To form some depression that can't be worn down.

And I cannot bear to see that,
Your face in a frown.
I cannot bear the tears,
That pour to the ground.

But what can I do?
I can't sway your love.
I can't be an angel God sent from above.
So I'll wait and I'll cherish your love,
I'll comfort you,
I promise I'm not giving up.

I will not abandon you or lead you astray,
I won't be like those who made your world grey.

So I'm sorry for mistakes that I made and the pain that you brave.
But you're not alone,
You'll last out these days.
I won't just let go,
I refuse to lose faith.
Because you're still in my heart and deadlocked in place.

My God you're so special,
You're special to me.
I'll hold you so tight,
And I'll never leave.