My Mistake || Hyunsung

19 | Clarity

Hyunjin gently traced Jisung's arms with the tip of his fingers as the brunette held him close.

"Are you okay?" Jisung asked softly, "You've been quiet since coming out the shower."

Hyunjin shyly replied, "I'm just.. is this.. are you.."

Jisung smiled at the dark haired boy not being able to form a proper sentence and cupped one of his cheeks in the palm of his warm hand, saying, "Hey, it's okay. You can talk to me."

Hyunjin took a deep breath and said, "This just feels a little too much a little too soon. Not long ago we were saying how much we hate each other. I can't help but feel like it's not real. Like you're just going to get up and leave me behind because I can't keep up with you."

Jisung just lay there silently, attentively listening to every word Hyunjin was saying.

"I've wanted this for so long and thought of a million different scenarios of what would happen if you ever liked me back that it just doesn't feel like it's actually happening," Hyunjin finally made eye contact with Jisung who just smiled at him reassuringly.

"It's okay," Jisung responded, running his fingers through Hyunjin's long black locks, "If you feel like things are moving too fast, we can slow down. We can just be friends for now if that's what you want. I don't want you to feel like you need to compete with me. You rap just fine."

Hyunjin chuckled at the last part, "You dance fine too."

Jisung smiled and kissed his forehead softly.

"What do you mean we won't be seeing him anymore?" Chan asked with his eyebrows furrowed. Minho noticed him getting angry so he got closer to the older to try and calm him down by giving his hand a reassuring squeeze.

"The rest of you are okay to stay in contact with him as long your interactions don't involve Mr Han," said the HR person.

"What? There's no way this is happening again," said Changbin, "What's the bullshit excuse this time?"

"Binnie, calm down," Jeongin whispered, holding Felix's arm.

"Our contract clearly stated that you stay completely professional when working with our models on this project," said Mr Park as he turned to look at Jisung, "I'm aware of how you've broken that contract, Mr Han."

"Fuck your stupid contract," Jisung snapped.

"Ji-" Felix pulled the younger back before his pre debut self came out.

"No, I'm sorry but you've not really given me the opportunity to work with your models since accusing me of things I've not done so I don't know how I can breach a contract of not staying professional with your models I work with," Jisung glared at Mr Park, "You can shove your stupid rules up your ass because this isn't happening again."

"Have you finished?" Mr Park asked in a monotone voice, looking completely unfazed at the huffing boy, "It's sweet you care so much for the boy, but he clearly doesn't care as much for you."

"What are you talking about?" Jisung asked with his brows furrowed. He didn't trust this guy.

Just then Felix walked in from the front door followed by a sharply dressed man. The boys asked if everything was okay because of the guilty look on his face before Mr Park explained his plan to try and 'fix things.'

"What do you mean you're just going to come out with a statement that Felix and Hyunjin are a couple?" Chan asked in disbelief as Jisung just stood their, processing what the old man had just said with Changbin holding his shoulder.

Minho glanced at Seungmin who was clearly upset by the plan but was forced to stay professional given his role.

"How does that fix anything?"

"The public love the Golden Princes," explained the HR guy, "It would be more accepted than Mr Hwang having a relationship with someone like.."

"Someone like what?" Asked Changbin, standing in front of Jisung protectively. Not that Jisung could hide behind him, but the gesture was nice. "I dare you to finish that sentence."

The HR guy sighed and said, "Look, we don't have anything personal against Mr Han-"

"Clearly not," Minho interrupted.

"-but it's in the best interest of everyone that Mr Han and Mr Hwang do not continue with their relationship," the HR guy continued.

"How?" Jisung asked, "How the fuck does this make things any better? Let the guy live for fucks sake. Who gives a shit about what the public thinks? Does his happiness not matter? It's not like this was his dream or anything."

Jisung glanced at Felix then Mr Park and said, "And Felix? Don't you see how you're affecting your models you apparently care about so much?"

"That's enough," Mr Park snapped back at the brunette, "My decision is final."

Jisung glared at the old man and stormed off without another word.

//

Hyunjin breathed heavily when the music stopped and he stared at himself in the mirror for a moment before drinking some water as his sat on the floor.

What was he doing?

He was a model. Yet every time he found himself in a difficult situation he ended up at the same practice room dancing till he felt like his lungs would collapse.

He laughed to himself quietly with his head between his legs but those chuckles were soon followed by sobs. Tears streamed down his face and he clenched his dark hair trying to make out a clear thought in his mind.

Amidst all the chaos there was only one clear image in his mind - the same face that had always been clear to him..

"That's all you got?" Hyunjin lifted his head at the voice from the other end of the room and smiled, "You should dance better."

..Han Jisung.