casual lovers

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leah dropped me off at home before she had to go for her meeting with sarina ahead of the euros. it was already confirmed that she would be captain but nothing else was.

as i opened the door, i saw a woman who looked a similar age to me walk out. i raised an eyebrow and walked inside, assuming it would have been someone alessia knew. i waved at leah as she pulled out of the driveway.

i called for alessia and she said she'd be down in a bit.

i sat in the living room and turned on the tv, scrolling through netflix to find a new show to watch. bear hopped up onto the sofa next to me and rested his chin on my lap as i stroked his soft fur.

it had been some hours and alessia still hadn't come down. i decided to go up and check on her.

i heard sniffles coming from her room. i knocked slowly.

"less it's me, can i come in?" i asked. 

"yeah" came her quiet voice.

i walked in and she was sat on her bed with red eyes and tear stained cheeks.

"lessi what's going on" i asked, sitting down on her bed beside her and pulling her in for a hug.

"i dont feel like talking about it right now" she said.

"okay but im here for you whenever you want to talk" i said softly.

"thanks eve" she said. she pulled back and wiped her eyes with her sleeves.

"im going to make some dinner, do you have a preference of what i should make" i said. she shook her head.

"i dont mind" she said.

"okay" i said and left.

i cooked us dinner and prepared the table. leah phoned and said she's going out for dinner with a friend and would come over after. 

alessia came down and sat at the table opposite me. we ate in silence.

alessia couldn't look at me, she avoided eye contact and wouldn't talk.

"are you okay less" i asked.

"yeah" she mumbled.

i watched as she pushed her food around her plate seeming to have no appetite at the moment.

something is very off.

she ate some more food and took her plate to the dishwasher before heading back upstairs to her room.

i don't want to seem too pushy but i just want to check she's okay. for a while she's been a bit off and i haven't really done anything to help but it seems quite bad now.

i tidied up a bit in the kitchen and then went back to alessias room.

i sat on the bed with her.

"less seriously what's going on? your not yourself" i said.

"i just- i dunno i think there's something wrong with me" she said, her eyes stayed looking down at her hands which rested on her lap.

"why do you think that" i asked.

"since the break up, i haven't been uhm- this is hard to explain" she said.

"take your time love" i said.

"erm like ive slept with people, but i haven't like felt anything. i don't know if that makes sense" she said.

"like i do things to them and they like it but when they do things to me it doesn't feel good?" she said confused of if her wording was right. her cheeks reddened as she spoke about this topic.

"i think there's something wrong with me" she said.

"less there's nothing wrong with you" i said. "your probably just not having sex with the right person"

"you need someone who knows how to pleasure a woman" i said.

for the first time she looked up at me, her eyes meeting mine before she looked down again blushing bright red.

"uhm could you, yknow" she asked.

"erm i don't know less, id be open to it if it would help you but it's up to leah." i said.

"we're not exactly girlfriends but i could have a chat with her and see what she says. i can't promise it will be a yes though" i said.

"are you sure? i wouldn't want to yknow, cause problems between you and leah" she said.

"that's why ill talk to her and im not making you any promises" i said.

i want to help alessia so she can over come this but i have no idea how leah will react.

"thank you eve your the best" she said.

later that evening, i was getting into bed when i heard my door open.

"god i've missed you so much" leah's voice came as she stepped through the door.

"i missed you too le" i said.

"i was talking to bear" she said with a cheeky laugh.

"dickhead" i mumbled, throwing my pillow at her.

"i missed you too though baby" she said, coming towards me and pressing a kiss to the side of my head.

she changed into some pyjamas which were actually just my clothes and went to the bathroom.

now im getting really nervous to ask her.

she got in beside me and pulled my body against hers.

"you okay darling? you seem a bit off" she said.

"i need to talk to you about something" i said. "just promise you won't get mad or angry and if you don't like the idea then i definitely won't do it"

"okay.." she said nervously.

"promise?" i asked.

"promise" she said with a slight nod.

"okay. so i was talking to alessia about her feelings and she was basically saying that she doesn't think she can be intimate with anyone but i told her she needed to find someone who actually knows how to please a woman" i said nervously.

"i think i know where this is going" she said.

"she asked if i could help her. listen if you don't want me to i wont do it because i really care about you. i just want you to know that this is basically your decision and if that isn't something your open to i will absolutely stay away from that" i said.

"i don't know love" she said. she looked a little worried.

"look leah, it's nothing personal i promise, she's a mate and she needs help. i used to do it all the time with you. there will be absolutely no feelings attached and it won't mean anything. she just needs to know that there is people out there at are good enough for her so she doesn't give up" i said. "she isn't herself le, but if you hate it then i won't do it"

"i agree, she hasn't been herself" she sighed. "i think it would help her. it'll only be once right? and no emotions involved?"

"yes one only and no emotions." i nodded.

"then im okay with it as long as you set some rules with her" she said.

"okay le, i'll speak to her about it" i said.

"later though yeah" she said, dragging my body into hers and burying her face in my neck. "im tired"

i chuckled slightly and wrapped my arms around her.

"goodnight baby" i said.

"night" she mumbled pressing a kiss to my neck.

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