Princess and another princess

Summer Love (P.9)

-"Beca! Are you okay?"

I look at Jesse, who is standing in front of me.

-"I'm sorry! I just went out...Thanks god you came back safely" - He says as hugging me.

-"Oh ok, I'm okay. Don't worry" i pull him out and smile gently.

-"Uhmm"

-"Where did you go, Jesse?"

-"Ah, just went out...i had..." He stammers -"ugh, forget it. As long as you came back."

-"I want to know, Jesse" - I say seriously.

-"What the hell, Beca?" Jesse winces, he starts getting mad, i guess.

-"I'm your girlfriend, i can't ask you, huh?"- i stand up and give him a serious look. We have never had a serious conversation like this before. Face to face. And i don't think i do anything wrong. I'm doing right.

-"Stop asking me where i'd gone, what i had done, i feel like i don't have freedom"

-"What? FREEDOM?" I roll my eyes -"Fuck"

-"What the hell is that attitude?"

-"Nothing" - i smirk -"Nothing".

-"Okay, I'm sorry Bec, sorry, i just... I'm under a lot of pressures, I..."

I look up at Jesse, tears are dropping on my face.

-"Jesse, I think we need time to think about our relationship. Seriously."

-"What? Beca? What the hell is happening? I did wrong something, right? Tell me, i can fix it. We cannot break up like this"

-"We don't break up Jesse. We need time to think 'bout our relationship"

-"Why?"

-"You don't want to hear"

-"I really want"

I sigh. Then look at him.

-"I can't feel...."

Jesse is looking at me, waiting for the answer. Well, yeah: "I can't feel your.." I say slowly. I look at him, gonna say more, his phone suddenly rings.He goes out and answers the call slightly, like he doesn't want i hear his conversation.

-"...okay, i will see you later" -"Oh"-"Okay"-"Uhm" - That's all i can hear, i look at him curiously. He comes in and gives me a reluctant smile:

-"Oh well, friends call me..."

-"Oh..." - i continue -" You don't have to explain"

-"Listen, Beca. I don't want our relationship stops here" - He sits on bed next to me and holds my hand.

I look down the ground then look at him, smile reluctantly:

-"We don't break up, we are just..there were so many crazy things happened few days ago...In conclusion, i need time to think about this relationship. And i think you need, too. When we return home, we will say about this. Okay?"

He stands up and stares at me:

-"Uhm. I got it. I will respect you"

-"Thanks"

-"Now i have to go, well, Uhm"

-"Uhm yes"

He nods then goes.
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I'm lying on bed with my laptop. Chloe went out with Tom and still not return. It's 10 PM. Jesse's gone. Chloe and Tom've gone. And I'm alone here with my stupid computer. I go to Youtube to entertain. I don't know what to listen or watch. It's so weird when my hand...well, i, i type "Girls like Girl" in search box, i actually don't know what i am doing. It's just a stupid thought in my mind. Wait, "Girls like girls" by Hayley Kiyoko. Wow, it's a song. I click in that video curiously. It's a beautiful song with beautiful lyrics, special the music video of this song makes me cry. I don't know. Just poor girls, they love each other, that boy in the video is so rude. The girls are so adorable together. So adorable. So perfect. TOGETHER.

"Saw your face, heard your name, gotta get with you
Girls like girls like boys do, nothing new..."

The lyrics make me cry. I wipe tears in my eyes. Suddenly the door is opened, i turn around quickly and i see the redhead is standing there with a sexy black dress.

-"Beca, why don't you go out tonight? It's so great"- Chloe asks me.

-"Uhm, Yeah, I'm tired. How about the date?"

-"Date?"

-"You and Tom" - I smirk

-"Oh, just normal, it's fun, beer and friends" - Chloe smiles reluctantly.

I nod and pretend to watch something in laptop. Chloe sits on the bed next to me and stares at my laptop:

-"Well, "Girls like girls" is it good?"

-"Yeah, nice song. Don't know what to do, so...well"

-"I want to hear it" - Chloe says as looking at me. -"wait...You cried?"

-"No..nope" - I lie then turn away quickly, wiping tears.

She looks at me curiously but says nothing. We start watching the video, when it shows the scene that the boy hits the girl, Chloe yells "Shit! He must die, damn it", i look at her and smile secretly. Such a cute girl. She's still cute even when she gets mad, her blue eyes are sparkling. I stare at her for a while, i don't even care what the hell is happening around me. I've just forgotten everything. Redhead, blue eyes, sexy dress. I can hear the beat of my heart, it is beating fast, so fast. Suddenly, her sweet voice pulls me back to the real world:

-"Don't look at me like that, Bec" - She looks at me and smiles gently.

-"Like what?"

-"You don't want to hear it" - She winks.

-"Who says? I want"

-"Like...I'm your everything" - She whispers, but i can hear it clearly.

I smile reluctantly and say nothing. I don't know what i should say. Well, she's not wrong. Now i just want to jump out this floor. I wish i could do it. My face turns into red, i pretend to look outside to avoid what Chloe said.

-"Okay, i have to take off this dress. Take your time"

-"Wait, Chloe" - I call her without thinking. -"You look so nice tonight"

Her eyes open wide, she grins:

-"Oh, thank you so much, Bec" - She looks down and smiles gently -"Your compliment is meaningful to me"

She looks at me, smiles shyly then goes into the bathroom.

I still sit on bed, I'm pretty sure my face look stupid now. I see Chloe's going into the bathroom and smile like an insane girl.

"...Your compliment is meaningful to me"

Think about this makes me happy.

Now i know, i know, i actually have feelings for Chloe. And Chloe, tell me that you feel it too. Tell me, you are not in love with Tom. Tell me please...