Finding Myself, Finding You *Daryl Dixon X OC*

Chapter Eight

The wine didn't keep the nightmares at bay. In fact, I'm sure it made them worse. It was the same as last night, but there was a little more clarity this time. I could feel my hands above my head and a crushing weight on my body. The surface I was laying on was hard and cold, but I couldn't tell what it was. Then it was the same—the fuzzy vision and the taste of metal and gunpowder being shoved into my mouth before I screamed.

I woke up on the floor again, hoping I hadn't screamed out loud this time and woken Daryl again. I just laid there on the floor, waiting to see if I would hear my door open. After a moment, it did. The humiliation I had felt from the same situation last night came creeping back as I sat up and looked at him over the bed.

"I'm so sorry," I said, pulling myself back to my feet and steadying myself on the bed. The hangover headache was already starting.

"Ya ok?" I was taken aback by his question.

"Umm, yeah, I think so. My head's pounding, but I'm alright." I could make out his features in the moonlight coming through my window—that messy mop of chocolate brown hair, his toned arms, his stoic but kind face, and those beautiful blue eyes. He was like a painting with how beautiful he was. I wanted nothing more in that moment than to get wrapped up in his arms and tell him just that. To get lost in those pools of blue and never find my way out.

"Ya hit your head?" His gorgeous half-asleep, half-awake voice was so good at pulling me back to reality. I was surprised he was asking so many questions.

"No, I think it's just the hangover setting in. I'm so sorry, again. And I'm sorry in advance because this is probably going to keep happening. That's how it was before I got here. You don't have to keep checking on me, really."

"A scream 'n a crash usually don't mean nothin' good in this world," Daryl said.

"You really don't have to keep coming in. I feel bad enough for waking you, let alone making you feel like you need to check on me," I replied. I climbed back into bed, feeling the slight dampness of the sheets from the night sweats that had plagued me in my sleep.

"No promises." I rolled my eyes slightly and rolled over, my back facing him and the door. I heard the door close, but not all the way, stopping just before it was latched.

"Daryl, can you close the door?" I shouted over my shoulder. I didn't hear anything, nor did he come back. Not having the energy to get up, I huffed a "whatever" under my breath, before closing my eyes and trying to fall back asleep. A couple of minutes later, as I was starting to drift off, I heard the door open again, the sound of something being set on my dresser, and the door closing, this time all the way. I rolled over enough to look back over my shoulder to see what it was.

There was a small glass of water on the dresser, accompanied by what looked like a bottle of Tylenol.

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When I woke a few hours later, the sun had just risen, and I could hear birds outside my window, sitting on the ledge and chirping little songs to each other. I rubbed the sleep from my eyes and yawned. I propped my head up, resting it on my hand to look out the window. There were two small chickadees perched outside my window with their backs to me. They were chirping back and forth at each other, and I wondered what their relationship was like—if they were family, if they were members of the same flock. Maybe siblings, maybe lovers.

I swung my legs over the edge of the bed and pulled myself up. Today, I was going to start seeing patients, and though I could still feel the hangover headache, I was going to have to push through. I walked over and grabbed some clothes out of a dresser drawer—a pair of black shorts, a black plaid button-up crop top, and the leg holsters for my gun and my knife--and got dressed. Even when my weapons weren't in their respective holsters, having them on made me feel cool, like an apocalyptic video game character.