Dil kanch sa Tut hi gaya

part-31

Naa chahate huye, daag paye hai humne, lakiroo ke.....
Kaise bataye sabko ki kitne jakm khaye hai humne, jamane ke....

Sabko dikhti hai, bass meri hasti Hui kilkariya.....
Kaha Gaye the sab, jab mai bhi thi uun band darvajoo ki kahaniya....

Aaj aa gaye mujh pe sab ungali karne....
Bolte hai mai besharmo ki putali huu....
Kisne kise khoyaa hai,, kya paya hai, kya boya hai....
Kya yahi hai uss jamane ki , insaniyat ki nishaniya........

Mere apno ne mujhe toda hai....
Adhe rastye mujhe Lake chhoda hai....
Mai ne to Puri jindagi bitani chahi...
Lekin shayad uparvale ne bhi yahi manjoor Kiya hai....

Kya he meri galti....
Ki Mai hasati hu...??
Gaamo ko bhulake
jine ki koshish karti hu...??
Agar yahi saja hai meri
Ki Mai rooti rahu...
Har roj tutati rahu...
Gammo ke badal me maar hi jau...
Jinda lashh banke bass
Unn sab ki ankho me
ek pavitr baan jau....

(Guy's I am writing this on basis when sidharth gone and some nonsense people troll her just because she enjoyed herself with friends,in their special day just to relief them.. because they were insisting her to come... She get herself into trouble....

So what her thoughts, what her mind set, what she thinks to get into normal.....

Don't copy my work because I am writing my pure feelings..... Please 🥺 )

Nhi chahiye mujhe aisi jindagi...
Nhi chahiye mujhe aise log...
Mai hu jaisii, vasii hi thik huu abb....

Kya inhe pata hai..??
kya hota hai tutke buikhar Jana...
Kya inhe pata hai..??
Kaise sanse chalti hai, bina lamhe ko jiye Jana.....
Kya inhe pata hai..??
Kya thi mai or kya ho gai hu....
Kya inhe pata hai..??
Kya khoya hai Maine or kaise jiti hu....

Abb bass ho gaya....
Mujhe jinaa hai sirf apane liye...
Nahi tha koi mere sath ,
inn sab me se ,
mere Dil ko sambhal ne ke liye...

Aa jate hai sare sirf sawal karne..??
Kya mera wajud kafi nhi hai....
Mujhe haske muskurane me....
Mai bhi insaan hu,
maine bhi khoya hai...
Balki,,,... Sirf maine khoya hai..!!!
Lekin, mujhe hii Aaj
javab mange jate hai,,
Meri hansi ke karn ,
raaj puche jate hai...
Khud ko Insaan kahane walo....
Dusaro ko Insaan,
pahachan na hi bhul jate hai.....

Mujhe aab khud ke liye jinaa hai...
Mere kanch ke Dil ko
Ab khud hi sambhalna hai...
Kitno ne usse toda hai...
Saree tukdo ko firse
Pironaa hai...
Mai kafi huu ab khud ke liye
Mujhe ye dikhana hai...
Aab na kahe koi firse...
"Dil kanch saa Tut hi gaya"
Bass...!! Ab mujhe
mere liye jinaa hai....
Bas...!! Ab mujhe mere liye jinaa hai....

Sana: papa.... Aap kab aye... Mujhe pata hi nhi chala.....

Dr.d: bachhaa tum kaha khoyi thi... Mai 10 min se tumhe awaj de Raha tha. Fir socha ek baar Jake dekh leta hu khud hi..

Sana: woo Mai bass lunch ki tayyari kr rahi thi...

Dr.d: shehnaaz... Kya hua hai mera bachhaa... Aaj kuch udas lag rahi ho.. morning walk or exercise bhi nhi Kari tumne Aaj...

Sana smile slightly,

Sana: kuchh nhi papa.. bass aise hi Aaj Maan nhi tha Jane ka... Waise bhi mai late uthi thi aaj... To nhi gai... Aap ka din kaise raha hospital me,

Dr.d: kuchh jyada nhi, wahi sab petient or medicine... Ajkal kuch jyada hi heart problem chal Rahi hai...

Sana: haa heart ko blood pumping se jyada, ab emotional termoil se gujarna Jo padd raha hai.....

Dr.d understand her sarcasm,

Dr.d: lekin wo bhi sab hum pe depend karta hai na... Ki hum chijho ko kaise handle karte hai....

Sana: haa papa.... Aap sahi kahte hai lekin, kabhi kabhi aas paas ki atmosphere bhi bohot affect karti hai...

Dr.d: or wo affect kyu karti hai... Pata hai kyu....???

Sana: nhi pata.... Kyu...????

Dr.d: kyu ki tum strong nhi hoo pate... Jaise immunity kam rahane se viral infection ho jati hai,, vaise hi jab tum strong nhi hote to aas pass ke logo ki bate tumhe jyada khatakti hai... Wo log to yahi chahte hai bachha, lekin tumhe bhi strong banana chahiye or wo sab ko galat sabit karna chahiye....

Jab tak tum khud ko strong nhi samajhte... Tab tak to saree bate affect hoti hi rahegi.... Haina...

Sana: vaise papa.... Apane baat to sahi kahi hai.... Logics hai apane bhi... Sidharth ke jaise...

Dr.d: hmm.... Jindagi sab sikha deti hai.... Hum bass usake ishare nhi samajh pate hai... Aab chalo or lunch lagao.... Milke lunch karte hai....

Sana: yess, my dad.... Aap bas fresh hoke aa jaiye....

Dr d: waise Aaj sidharth ne kaha, tum udass ho kal se.... Kuch hua hai kya

Sana turn and look at her father,

Sana: nhi kuchh nhi hua... Bass hava ayi to mai udane chali gai,,, fir kisi ne Jamin pe Lake rakh diya....

Dr.d: shehnaaz, maine tumhe kabhi nhi roka bachhaa.... Tum bass khud pe dyaan doo... Mera strong bachhaa hai sabse....

Sana: yess papa.... Strong hai shehnaaz sabse..... Handle kr legi sab....