guilt, and now regrets

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Farouk's POV
I felt guilty for not being able to love her throughout the three years or take care of her.

I had become distant and always made the caretakers attend to her more.I used excuses that I was busy with work inorder not to deal with her.

Thinking back I felt sorry for how I treated her.I Decided to close early from my business.I came home to find the caretaker feeding her

I took over and told the caretaker to go home.Looking at her state and how weak she was,I felt sorry for her.But then she vomited causing me to feel disgusted.

She noticed.
Muina:am sorry (she said with tears in her eyes.i felt guilty but still didn't find it in me to clean her up.She did it herself as I looked away) I know you don't love me anymore.

(I looked at her)
Farouk:why do you say that?
Muina: I disgust you.dont worry I won't be here for long,you can get remarried and have the family you have always wanted.

Farouk: don't say that (she broke down into uncontrollable tears ,I couldn't help but feel guilty,I was most definitely not going to marry abiba for now.I decided to dedicate my time in making her last few months memorable.)

I wiped her tears.
Farouk:am staying with you till the end, don't worry everything is going to be alright.
(She noded.I hugged her.She was very hot,so I got some cold water and placed some blanket in it)

I placed it on her forehead.
I decided to dedicate all my time to her.

6 months later I regretted it,it seemed she was intentionally leaning on me just because I dedicated myself to her.

Even to pee,I had to carry her, meanwhile she could walk.I was tired of the shenanigans.

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