Identical Alpha Twins and Silver Shackles

Chapter 13

Rio had exploded through the door and knelt at the side of my bed, he grabbed my hand for the first time ever
"Please sweet girl, I hoped explaining what happened the day you saw Atlas and the Rogue, what happened, why it had happened, knowing you ran back to your wicked family that day nearly broke me. I knew you were scared of me but I have tried so hard the last two days to show you I can be kind, sweet and gentle but I understand if that isn't enough. I understand
if you want a life free from fear and stress and if you need to reject me to achieve that I understand but please, please I beg you don't reject Rogan, he has sacrificed himself, his happiness, his youth to be everything for everyone who needs him. He deserves to be happy, loved and complete, only you can do that, reject me, I will live to support my brother but please don't reject him, just please don't do that"
I had no idea what he had heard to make him believe I was going to reject them but the look on Rio's face left me in no doubt that was what he thought I was going to do. Tears were freefalling down Rio's face and I could feel the streaks my own were making on my face.
Rogan looked horror-struck and was staring at me questioningly as though his brother had figured out something he hadn't. The feelings rolled off the two of them, I just wanted to fix it but I wasn't sure how, what if I did or said the wrong thing. It hadn't occurred to me to tell Rio that my opinion of him had changed. I thought it had been obvious but I guess not. I wasn't
used to people caring what I thought, nevermind someone's happiness being affected because I hadn't told someone, something.
'Rio'
I sighed as I held my arms out to him. I wasn't even sure it was the right thing to do but I just wanted to make him feel better. His head snapped up and he almost leapt onto the bed bedside me and into my arms for the tightest hug I'd ever had.
"I wasn't talking about you"
I whispered into his shoulder as my nails gently brushed his scalp.
"I was talking about me. I was scared that I wasn't good enough, strong enough or really just enough of anything for both of you. I felt guilty that two strong, important men had been fated to such a useless creature, that is what you heard, I would never reject either of you. I promise"
I realised as I said it that I was opening myself up to a potential world of pain but I knew I wouldn't or couldn't reject them. I would accept and understand if they rejected me but on the off chance that they actually wanted me I wasn't going to turn down the first people in my life who would love me unconditionally and forever, people who would be physically unable
to harm me in any way. I squeezed Rio hoping he understood, as he wiped his face on my pillow. He raised his face up and looked directly in my eyes
"You really want us?"
The question came from Rogan and it broke my heart to see his look of uncertainty as he looked at me. I slowly nodded my head so he could clearly see my answer. I smiled in bemusement at how uncertain they both were and how happy they seemed that I wanted
them. I held my hand out to Rogan inviting him to join me and Rio in our cuddle. I still had so many questions but for now, at this minute I just wanted to enjoy the warmth of the twins and the security I felt from being in their arms. All too soon Doctor Wittstocks, Doctor Coupson and Marie came into the room. They smiled
at the huddle of bodies on the bed but the boys moved away from me quickly when they noticed other people were here. They relocated to their normal chairs looking rather sheepish but also quite pleased.
"We need to begin preparations "
The twins' dad announced looking at me with an encouraging smile but I was suddenly feeling quite nervous. The preparations required me to change into what was essentially a loose pair of shapeless, cotton shorts, which stopped above my knees and a sports bra type garment with cupped sleeves. I was left alone while I got changed and to my surprise it was
Marie who was the first to come back into the room. She was a smaller woman but still taller than me and her smile was really kind but she had an air of mystery and a touch of chaos about her. She came towards me with open arms and normally I'd be terrified. I had been
trained to expect pain from everyone but this strange old woman made me feel oddly safe, secure like her grandsons made me feel. She embraced me in a tight hug and begun whispering in my ear
"Things are going to feel strange afterwards, don't be disappointed if everything isn't perfect but remember how strong you are, how much you've overcome and how much life still has to offer for you. I am going to leave a letter for you and my family in your bedside cabinet. I would really appreciate it if you could read it for them once you are feeling up to it ok?"
Like everything else surrounding her and my procedure her words seemed very cryptic to me but I wasn't in a position to deny a request from someone so willing to help me. She smiled as I nodded and a warmth seemed to be emitting from her suddenly. She gripped the tops of my arms surprisingly tightly for an older woman and drew me towards her
"Night night precious darling"
She muttered against my ear as I dropped into the deepest sleep I've experienced.