A blast from the past(Hyunlix)

5.

FELIX

It's been three days since I saw my little angel. If you remove all the days that we FaceTimed that is. Today is Wednesday and I plan on surprising him.

I don't know if he'll be happy but I gotta do this. Since it was already lunchtime I bought him some lunch and headed to his college.

The parking lot was segregated into the students', staff and guests parking lot so I parked where I was supposed to. After that I called him and told him to meet my driver so he can collect his lunch.

His cheeks turned light pink when he saw that it was actually me and not my driver." H-hyung? What are you doing here?" he asked clearly surprised that I was there.

"Am I not allowed to check on you or do I need a special invitation?" I smiled a little and he shook his head." You told me your driver will be coming not you" he said and I chuckled at his cuteness before ruffling his perfect hair.

"Okay now that I'm here how about we eat lunch together?" I asked and he nodded with a little smile." Is there anywhere we could sit? Unless you're comfortable with eating in the car" I asked.

"I think I know somewhere" he said and I nodded before collecting our lunch and letting him lead us to whatever spot he had in mind. After roughly thirty seconds we arrived and the place was perfectly secluded. Nice.

"I hope you're not feeling uncomfortable." He said and I shook his head with a smile before sitting down on the wooden chair. It was neatly vanished and beautifully sculpted.

I gave him his lunch which consisted of spaghetti and meatballs that I'd cooked for him personally. He thanked me for the food with a little blush and smile. He waited for me to start eating again and this time I looked at him to see if he'll remember what I said to him the first time we met.

He pouted probably because he felt like I'm delaying him or something." Do you want to say something pumpkin?" I asked him and he shook his head. Now that was bad mannerisms on my baby boy.

"Munchkin I told you, you don't have to wait for me to start eating or wait for my permission."

He nodded and started eating. I wasn't fond of him answering with gestures but I didn't want to ruin his mood and appetite so I just let him be. The fact that he was eating was more important than any other thing at the moment.

I started on my own food too and I made small talk with him." Do you often come here?" I asked and he nodded." Yeah I do. During lunch or when I'm waiting for another class" he answered. I loved it when he answered with full sentences and not just one word or a small phrase.

"And your friends?" I asked and he shrugged." I don't have no friends beside Changbin hyung and his boyfriend." It was nice to see that his only friend won't turn out to be homophobic because I was going to beat the living hell out of him if he was homophobic.

"Don't worry. Even I have no friends except my PA and my driver" I said and he giggled. He giggled! Where was my damn phone? I should have recorded that majestic voice. I just died and came back.

Some girls passed by and I could hear the gasps that erupted from them. I knew my baby was beautiful but there was no need for them to gasp and stare at him.

"Isn't that Lee Felix? The one with the biggest restaurants?" I heard one girly voice say and my baby probably did because his face turned stoic right then. It was pleasing to see that my baby was possessive over me as I was over him.

"Little one?" I called and he looked at me with a fake smile. That I didn't like at all. Whatever feelings he had were supposed to be communicated and not hidden. I mentally put that on the list of things I was supposed to talk to him about.

"Is the food delicious?" I changed the topic and he nodded with a smile that was worth every ounce of my effort." Yes it is. Thank you." I smiled at him and this time he gave me a genuine smile.

"How many classes do you have after this?" I asked him and he shook his head." None." I nodded before picking up the trash and throwing it in the nearest bin.

"Then let's go get some ice cream. Does that sound good to you?" he smiled before nodding quickly." And then I'll drop you after that. Is that okay?" I asked him and he nodded saying a quiet yes hyung.

I took his hand as we went to the car and I opened the car for him before getting in myself. We drove to the nearest ice cream with him guiding me since I wasn't really familiar with the place.

"You know that I would appreciate it if you showed me more of your real self. I need to know how you feel and what you think." I said to him and he nodded while chewing on his lower bottom lip.

"I know you can't do it all at once. Just try to let go a little bit when you're with me. Slowly we'll get you to that specific place where you feel safe the most." I said softly and he looked at me with glossy eyes. He opened his mouth to speak but closed it again as though words got stuck in his throat.

As badly as I wanted to comfort him I was driving. I held out my hand to him and he hesitantly took it with tears spilling down his face. I pulled over immediately. If there was something I wasn't going to tolerate on my baby boy it was tears.

Unless he was happy or letting go of a bad memory. I know we weren't yet there for me to pull him into my lap but he was crying and I had to calm him down. I pulled him onto my lap and soothed him as he let out silent cries.

"It hurts." He mumbled quietly as he held tightly onto my shirt and sobbed his lungs out." What hurts munchkin? Show me where it hurts." I said softly as my heart broke into a million pieces.

"Everywhere hyung." He said with a high pitched voice and I could tell that he had slipped." It's okay pumpkin. Let it all out, I'm here." I said and he nodded against my chest.

I kept on whispering sweet nothings to him until his sobs turned into small hiccups but he still clung tightly onto me. After a while his grip became loose and I knew he had drifted off to sleep. I sighed and went home.

I cancelled all my remaining meetings and Seungmin chowed my head for doing that. No meeting was more important than my baby boy. Upon reaching home I cleaned his face and put him to sleep in my room.

I changed into sweats and a t-shirt and I just stayed with him. I finished my work in my room and he woke up a few hours later while still in his headspace. I guess the memories weren't really pleasurable.

We went to his house to take a few of his stuff not forgetting his Cuddles and Bluey because he said Cuddles was his only friend apart from his hyung. I couldn't let my baby feel lonely could I?

His hyung interrogated me like I was a criminal and those muscles looked ready to give a good punch. At least apart from me there was someone Hyunjin could rely on and that made me happy.

Upon reaching home he took a bath and ate his dinner which consisted of chicken nuggets and fries. After eating he slept again and I had to hold him steadily so he could brush his teeth.

He then drifted off immediately. I guess today really took a big toll on him. I sighed as I went to bed after taking a shower too.

To be continued

I'll be honest with you guys, I don't like this book even though It's mine. I feel that it's badly written and sometimes I forget to update because it's not there in my heart unlike my previous books. 

And I have never been a hyunlix shipper so I didn't write with much love. For me my perfect ships has always been minchan, hyunchan and changlix so writing a ship that I wasn't interested was a problem.

But once again sorry for the late update.