The Dark Cage

.....My biggest Fear.....

My biggest Fear was of getting replaced
GETTING REPLACED BY SOMEONE ELSE🍃
I moved to different city
I went to a new school for my class1st
On the first day of school my mother gave my responsibility to someone of my age only
That boy was given the responsibility to show me my new class
When we entered the school, one of the boy friends told me that his class is different
I didn't knew what to do They went towards the class
Now I was alone in a ground where I didn't knew a single person I was left alone
I tried my best to not to cry but how much can a 1st grader hold themself in
I started sobbing I thought
I AM LOST!!!
But after sometime I saw my father coming from the main gate
He camed to settle some documents for bus pass
He took me to the class and made me sit there then he left
When I entered the class I saw a boy crying
I asked a girl why he is crying
She told me that this is his first day and he is crying for his mom
At last she said " afterall we all cry on our first day"
I felt disgusting (and that's the reason why I didn't talked to that girl for the whole year ewwww )
One thing which my class lacked was common sense yes exactly common sense
The teacher asked in our first class that what is the meaning of this rubber (she was holding a eraser) I was shocked as no one knew I told the girl beside me that it is used in erasing things
She told the answer to mam , she was praised in the class, we became friends (let's call her C1)
C1 was good in studies and she had lot of friends
Unlike me who was not interested in talking to anyone and didn't even knew how to write her own name
I was best in oral exams but in written I was empty box
Till the end of session me and C1 were not to good friends
She left the school....
And I went to 2nd grade
Our school used to shuffle the whole section and create new section
I was the part of B section ( A class full of intelligence) still my grade rose till this time
I met a boy ( let's name him R1)
So R1 and I was very good friends till starting of our session
But a girl named( C2 )
Came they became friends
For the second I was replaced again
R1 refused to talk to me or sit with me afterwards
In the same standard I faced students who were two faced ( ofcourse when u r in a city like Kota u face these weird things , students of there were pretty mature , for us suicide attempt were so normal)
I was still the Freind of C2 till now
In 3rd grade C2 went to different place
And like every year we were merged again
This time I didn't had those two faced girls or R1 in my class this class was very new for me
I made a friend in first session only ( let's name her R2)
R2 and I was known as the best girls in the class we were very close
In the middle of the session a new girl came to our class ( let's name her C3 )
So C3 was very pretty like very very pretty she was average in studies I helped her out in studies, I Introduced her to R2
I went on a vacation I used to talk to R2 daily during evening hours during my vacations
She used to talk a lot about C3 I was happy I thought everything is great going
But....
I came back from vacation I saw R2 and C3 together sitting on a bench at last row I went there C3 told me to sit at there back
I didn't mind it but they used to ignore me a lot I confronted R2 and that's what was my biggest mistake
Now I was bullied by my own friends t
They used to pour water at me , hide my things , write weird letters and keep it inside my bag
The letters were written by C3 it was all about
That "u should not come to school u r this that how dumb u r and few abusive words "
{Like comeon yrr we r in 3 grade atleast think a little bit }
I stopped talking to anyone in class
I started to stay alone and quite
I faced replacement one more time
But everything changed in 4th standard....