Today was the day...
Many feelings.
Emotions.
Having a wedding and being 2 months pregnant at the same time?? Never thought I'd get here.
Everyone looking at me as I slowly walk down the aisle.
The music played.
My dad walked me down.
Never really talked about him much because him and his wife always traveled.
Even though their my God parents I consider him and his wife both my parents as well.
Jassen is his name.
and his wife, or my second mother.
Her name is Shearon.
He walked me down the aisle... tears in his eyes.
I've never seen him cry.
My mom... Both of them stood near the front.
Crying and snotting.
Everyone I ever knew was there at my wedding.
We got to the front where sev and his groom men were standing.
He was crying too.
"I love you so much SaMyah, you look so beautiful" He hugs me and lets me go.
I couldn't help but cry.
I walked up and stood in front of the man that's been with me through my darkest days.
Handled all of my mood swings.
All of my overthinking.
Still stood and refused to leave my side whenever I wanted to push him away.
As the preacher spoke and gave the ceremony, it got down to the vows.
I was nervous.
I didn't know what sev was going to say.
But then he spoke, it touched me more than hearing I love you.
"SaMyah..." He grabbed my hand and sniffed.
I wiped his eyes with my other hand and smiled.
"It's okay baby you got it" I smile as I start to cry as well.
I couldn't help it.
The atmosphere was so thick.
You could feel the emotion.
Love is the heaviest feeling.
Heavier than pain.
"...The day we both were at that gym as kids, little did I know was the beginning of a journey we didn't even know existed. I've had a hard life, you've been there with me since we were in college. Even though it was a rough beginning for us.. we still did it. You know how to get to me. You knew how to understand me when no one else would, or even could. You touch emotional areas that no one ever could.. I promised to never leave your side, I never have, never will. I promise to be there for you, I always have and always will. You're a very independent woman, you love your job but I'll never let you or make you feel like you HAVE to provide for the both of us. That's my job, And you know I promise and always will love and protect you. You will never ever have to feel alone."
Tears just fell from my face.
He smile and wiped my eyes.
"Mama don't cry beautiful"
