The Fear Of Falling Apart (Panic At The Disco Fan Fic)

Chapter 8 - Trust

-Brendon-
Damn this girl! I know we don't know each other all that well but I need to know why she is this way. I have a inner gut feeling that she's being abused at home. Obviously she is going through a lot if she cuts herself. God, why is it driving me so crazy!

-Jade-
"Brendon, you seem amazing too. It's just hard to trust someone to easily and quickly. If I tell you about me, you need to keep t to yourself and only yourself. Because I might be putting the most trust in someone I ever have." His eyes widened. But then he gave me a weak smile.

"Jade, you have my word." He suddenly took my hand, and kissed it again. All I thought was, here goes nothing.

I told him basically everything about my home life. My hell of a home. His face looked...almost un-explainable. But it looked almost sad and...angry. I told him every reason that I just Rome around an why I cut myself. When I was done telling him everything, you could tell he took in a lot of info. Maybe too much.

-Brendon-
I could not believe my ears. I felt so terrible for her. That finally explains her beating marks. But hearing everything she said didn't jut make me sad. It pissed me off too. Jade is such a great girl as far as I know and they just throw her around like she's nothing. That's bullcrap.

-Jade-
Tears begun to run straight down my face, in reminder of all the pain I've felt all my life. It looked like Brendon's eye watered too.

"Jade...Jade Andrade I am so fricken sorry you go through that. I'm also fricken disgusted that you go through that. Jade, I am here for you. Please know I am going to take almost all of my time jut getting to know you. You are a gem and I think you really need someone." He was right. I did. I meant so much to me what he said.

"And please don't cry. Don't waste your tears in them. Don't let them win." Brendon suddenly came out of his seat, and wrapped his arms around me for a hug. I loved every second of it.

"Thanks Brendon. That means a lot to me." He smiled.

"Please call me anytime you feel like it. I'm here for you. I will be your shoulder to cry on. I gotta head over to the studio to work on Too Weird To Live, To Rare To Die. He kissed my hand yet again.

"How 'bout I drive you home?" I shook my head.

"No I'm okay. I think I'll head over to a shelter." His face looks devastated.

-Brendon-
A shelter?! Man, I had to do something. I felt so terrible, I do not want her to risk getting anymore hurt than she is. That includes self harming. I had to think of what I could do. So, I invited her to stay with me for a while. She shook her head.

"No no! You don't have to! I'm used to the crap that happens around my place. I'm jut extra trouble any way." She said, but still sadness in her eyes.

"Jade, I insist. It can be just for a little while. Plus, it can help us get to know each other better. Trust me, you'll be way safer with me then there." So, I gave in a said yes. Something cool though was that I was going to the studio with him. When we got there, I saw Dallon and Spencer. Yay!

"Hey, what's up guys? I brought Jade!" Brendon said with a big smile. The guys looked confused. Which I understand why.

"Oh uh... Brendon you brought the fan with you..." Spencer! Shut up man! I have him thy sort of mad an annoyed look. Then Spencer looked embarrassed.

-Jade-
"Hey Jade!" Dallon came running over. Aw.

"Looks like Bren wanted more of ya eh?" I laughed a little and shook my head. Then Brendon explained to them I needed a place to stay for a while. By asked why, but Brendon didn't speak of it.

"Hi guys. Nice seeing you again." I said as they all smiled.

"Guys I think I'm gonna skip today. I'm gonna help Jade get settled in." Aw he didn't have to.

"Sure thing Brenny. See ya soon. Bye Jade! Can't wait to see ya again." Dallon exclaimed. Dallon was totally adorable. But not more than Brendon.

So I followed Brendon to his car. I was so excited to be living with him! SO UNBELIEVABLE! When w got there, I took one look at his beautiful mansion am I was immediately in love.

When we walked in, I found something funny out. I was sleeping the whole car ride. WE WERE IN LAS VEGAS!!!! It was a long rode trip, but I fell asleep so I didn't even notice how far we went. But we forgot something. My clothes and belongings!

"Oh shoot! We should have grabbed everything! Damn it... Uh... well you can borrow some of my clothes." Brendon offered. My clothes were sweaty and dirty so thank god he offered.

"Um, yeah sure." It was a little awkward. But cute that I was gonna wear his clothes.He went in his closet to find something decent. When he came out, he gave me skinny blue jeans, and a baggy dark green t-shirt. When I put it on and came out from the washroom to show Brendon, he laughed.

"I'm gonna be totally honest. You look so damn adorable in that! I love it! The baggy clothes look perfect on you actually." I felt my face get hot. I shook my head and scrunched my face.

"C'mon you don't agree? To be honest I find you beautiful no matter what you wear." Aww.

"Thanks, you too." He smiled. So far so great.