The Fear Of Falling Apart (Panic At The Disco Fan Fic)

Chapter 1 - Brendon Urie

-Jade-
There I was sitting. I was down town of Toronto, just sitting right next to the Hardrock Cafe. People that walked by me thought I was poor/homeless as I was sitting there, though I felt homeless cause I hated home. I didn't want to go back there. Sometimes I wouldn't even sleep there.

It was like I had no parents. I just had people who abused me. Everyday I would get beatings. Vicious, and un-bearable beatings. I always have a black eye, and a fat lip from my dad. I had bruises and kick marks from my mom.

So everyday I just rome around anywhere. Anywhere is better than home, where I consistently get hurt, to where I hate my life. I have cuts and scars from my self harm issues, and I have two suicide attempts, but I failed them.

Everyday I see people looking so happy. I see the most adorable and loving couples. I see happy and loving families, but for some reason I seem to not belong in those type of pictures.

Lets cut to my story now. It was December 12th, 2014. I was sitting right beside the Hardrock Cafe (as mentioned). People continuously walked passed me and gave me money due to me looking homeless. But I took it so I could buy bus tickets and food.

I was having my any other normal day, just relaxing and just listening to my favourite band, a certain someone walked up to me. Someone who I idolized and I thought I would never see. His eyes were a brilliant shade of brown, and he had a swept up hairstyle. Brendon Urie. The Brendon Urie. The lead vocalist of Panic! At The Disco. The minute I saw him, I began to Panic!

"Hello there. What are you doing out here in the cold? All by yourself?" Brendon asked. It was like I froze. My face most likely went blank. Then when I did begin to speak, I kept stuttering.

"H-hi. Um, I-I do this s-sort of t-thing everyday." Gosh it was embarrassing.

"Well, you look very cold. Here, take my jacket." Woah, Brendon was giving me his jacket?! Aww!

"Oh you don't have to. I have one at home..,except I can't go get it." He suddenly had a questioned look on his face. I actually was freezing. I was just in a sweater and jeans. I clearly was not thinking.

"Why can't you go get it? And if you have a home, why are you out here sitting in the cold?"

"Very long story. I just can't go home, okay?" I didn't mean to be rude to my favourite person of all time, but I can't just tell him my personal life just like that.

"Well, what's your name? Why don't I buy you a nice warm drink from The HardRock Cafe? You can warm up." How could I say no? I still could not believe this was happening. All I did was nod and smile. I got up (man my ass was cold), I realized Branden was so tall compared to me. But I liked it.

As soon as we got in, he asked me what I wanted. I had never been there before cause it was so expensive, so I asked for recommendations. He recommended and nice cup of hot cocoa, so I said a simple yes please.

"Um Brendon, uh I mean...ugh." I said his name. How creepy.

"Oh I see you know who I am. Ha ha! I'm Brendon Urie." He smiled after introducing himself. Man he was attractive.

"I'll order, you just take a seat Jade." I could not believe I was actually absolutely to sit down and have a drink with Brendon Urie. I was in heaven.