prairies - sadie sink x m! reader/oc imagines

20

Y/N was an overthinker and uncertain about a lot of things.. it was something he hated about himself. But tonight was worse than other times.

He sat criss cross on the steps in front of the house looking off into the midnight sky. The moon as mostly hidden behind clouds but the stars made up for it. It was chilly out but he only had on a white tee and black sweatpants. He was far too deep in his head to even want to go back in to get a hoodie or sweatshirt.

This thought had been nagging at the back of his head for at least two years now but he tried to push it away every time. "it's still a long time from now, don't overthink it", he'd tell himself. He assumed he'd cross that bridge when he got there.. but there he was finally at the foot of same bridge with more questions than ever.

Pulling out his phone, he peeked at the time on the screen.

11:50 PM.

Y/N pocketed his phone and slid his hands through his hair.. what was he supposed to do now? This was the end of his adolescence.. what came next? 20 years of his life were gone and he hadn't done anything noteworthy. He immediately thought to his girlfriend Sadie and her cast mates. They'd all gotten breakout success at 13 or younger. Sometimes he wondered what kind of miracle God had used to make the ginger have feelings for him.. much less become his girlfriend. Most of the time he felt like he didn't deserve her.. she'd done more in 12 years of acting than he'd done in 20 years of being alive. Even the house they lived in was mostly paid for by her.. although they'd "split" the cost. But it was definitely not equally.

He always heard that teenage years are the best years of life. If those were the best years.. he was terrified of what the worst looked like. He felt like he was about to be thrown into a wide and deep ocean with no land in sight.. he was terrified of going through life as a whole seeing as every experienced adult always told him "just wait till you get older".

He didn't know if he could deal with it, the responsibility of growing up. He was the first boy in the family so everyone pretty much expected him to grow up into this man that can shoulder the world.

Simply put, the thought of being an adult was terrifying.

There were so many what-ifs and buts floating through his head that Y/N didn't know when his breathing quickened. He felt a familiar fear build up in his stomach and course through his body, his hand immediately going to his chest as he tried to calm himself down.

He wasn't ready for this..

He leaned gis back against the wall, trying to regain himself before he spiralled again.

he wasn't–

"Y/N"

He didn't turn his head but his eyes darted to the right, spotting a familiar hue of red hair under the porch light.

She had on a black sweatshirt that dropped all the way to her thighs and almost hid her hands as well as jean shorts. She looked sleepy but worried.

"Are you okay?" Sadie asked softly.

Y/N nodded a little, but his lack of actual words told Sadie otherwise. They'd been together two years.. she knew his behavioral patterns by now.

"What're you thinking about?" She took a seat next to him. Y/N shook his head and tried not to look at her.. even if he were to tell her, there would be no actual way to properly communicate the kind of fear he felt.

"Y/N..." She reached for his chin and made him look at her.

Fuck.

Curse those caring blue eyes.. they always had a way of getting him to crack.

"Everything..." He whispered. "Sadie I'm about to be an adult and I don't know shit.. I haven't done anything to prepare me for it, I don't know what the fuck I'm supposed to do when i hit this age. I'm expected to grow up and face the world but from what I've seen, I don't know if I can. Everyone expects the world from me but I haven't done anything but mess around throughout my teens.. I don't even know how I managed to get you to fall in love with me when you're far too good for me. I don't deserve you or anything that came with you–"

"Y/N, stop" Sadie told him. She knew what happened when he got like this.. he went down a spiral and usually broke down.

"You're a fucking successful actress who's seen everything and literally has everything going for her" Y/N  kept going. "From the day we met till right now, I have barely done anything relevant. And now I'm supposed to grow up and go through life like it's no big deal? I barely kept it together when I was with my parents–"

"Y/N" Sadie called again, wondering if he could even hear her at this point.

"Shit I'm not ready for thism. I'm not ready!"

"Y/N!" Sadie made him turn to her one more time looking into his eyes. "Breathe in..."

Y/N slowly let himself inhale the cold night air.

"Now breathe out " Sadie instructed again. Her boyfriend obeyed and exhaled.

"In... Out"

"In... Out"

"In... Out"

The ginger made sure to hold his hand as he slowly breathed, rubbing her thumb on the back of his hand. Once he was calm enough, she started to talk softly.

"Did you know that once Millie and I left the bookstore after that first day you and met, I couldn't stop thinking about you?" Sadie looked down at both their hands. "You're right.. I've traveled a lot and seen a lot of things.. meaning I've also seen a lot of guys. But none like you.. none at all. You make me feel special without even trying or realizing it. You're the sweetest guy I've met.. you're so fascinated by the smallest things and you pay attention to things most would skip over, you're way more talented than you give yourself credit for... God, Y/N you're perfect. I don't care about or want anyone else.. i want you cause there's no one else on this planet that comes close. I love you.. I want to spend the rest of my life with you and I can't imagine my world without you in it"

Sadie leaned in till their foreheads touched. "About growing up... You're not alone, Y/N. You'll never be alone. I'm right here with you and I'm not leaving... Ever. Life's weird and complicated but we'll get through it. Getting married, having kids, growing old... We'll do all of it together"

Sadie brought his hand up to her lips and pressed a kiss to it. Just then, a beep went off.

The ginger pulled out her phone from her pocket and checked her screen.

12:00 AM.

"Happy birthday,my love" Sadie smiled before placing a soft kiss on his lips. Y/N closed his eyes and softly kisses back, feeling his fear melting slowly as he actually felt for the first time that things would be fine. He didn't know how she always managed to do it, but it worked every time.

God, he loved this girl.

His own phone vibrated next to him as they pulled away.  Picking it up, he saw a group chat notification.

Mav: Happy birthday, fucker. We're coming over later today.. to eat free food course.

Ivan: he's probably knocked tf out but still.. happy birthday dude.. you're an essential part of this group. We love you,man. No homo.

Mav: 🏳️‍🌈

Y/N smiled at his screen as Sadie placed a kiss on his cheek.

"Wanna go inside?" She whispered. He nodded before she took him by the hand.

Y/N was an overthinker and uncertain about a lot of things.. that was life. But he knew he had the best people he could ask for by his side so he'd mske it through just fine.