Uno,
Hi, Uno! I love you. This letter will be the last one na isusulat ko para sayo. In those previous letters of mine, parang na express ko naman na how much i love you. But in this letter, please allow me to be vulnerable for the last time. Please allow me to express my undying love for you dahil kahit anong mangyari i promise myself na magpapakasal lang ako pag nakita kitang okay na.
Pag okay na ako na mukhang malabong mangyari. Because, in my new apartment i still found myself crying over you.
I love you. I remember how cute you were when we were kids. The way you gave me the paper rings and promise to meet me again sa kung saang sulok pa yan nitong magulong mundo. Just like what you’ve said, we really met each other but as rivals. Academic rivals.
I love you. And being your rival when it comes to academics makes my life better and happier. Because of you, we met a lot of amazing people. Section Uno, our beloved home and pahinga. Because of our undying rivalry we were able to make a group of friends that helped us to be closer. I remember how competitive you were kasi ayaw mong natataasan kita. Bibigyan mo lang ako thumbs up or ngiti kapag inaasar kita.
I still remember how I analyzed my own feelings. Kung deserve ba talaga kita? Because you were too good for me. Parang galing ka sa isang romcom na libro. Your attitude and the way you look. The way you expressed what’s going inside your mind made me fall in love with you. I am lucky that i have you beside me.
Being your partner for the whole highschool up to college life will always be my roman empire. The one i will always think about on the most random days. If i could turn back time, i will always come back to our highschool life. It was all genuine kahit na ang cringe kasi we both know naman na it was real. It was the best one.
Those random going out for a walk kapag pagod ka or ako. Random road trip with the Section Uno. Our dates. First date where i confessed to you.
You are my first in everything. And, i’m happy that you’re the one na nandito sa tabi ko at ikaw ang kasama ko sa firsts ko.
College relationship was probably the hardest but comforting one. We moved out to an apartment where we promised each other to build it full of love, warmth, and comfort. The way we bought the appliances with our own money. Cooking different foods together. Coffee in the morning while catching up with our studies and life. Those random baking sessions. Our movie marathon in the middle of the night pambawi sa mga dates na hindi nagagawa dahil sa acads. Those cuddle moments in bed while talking about our future. Those random slow dance habang naulan, sa kitchen, and inside our room.
The way you held my ring finger para hulaan ang size nito para makabili ka at makapagprepare sa proposal na gagawin mo sa ‘kin. Our house na sila Mikey ang sponsor kasi CE siya haha. I still remember how we planned our wedding. Beach and cathedral wedding. How many kids ang gusto natin, you answered kung hanggang saan makakaya ko kasi mahirap ang mag buntis. I still remember how you kissed my hand while saying the things that made me smile. “I’ll never leave you.” And, that’s when i realized na i need to strive harder for us to be able to live with that dream of ours.
Pero lahat may hangganan at dulo. Will you believe me if i felt that our sparks are no longer here? Our random ganaps ay napupunta na lang sa pagtulog at gigising na wala ka na. Sabay tayong kumakain pero madalas wala akong kasabay dahil wala ka. I don’t know what’s happening to you hanggang sa Kuya Ran reached out.
He told me everything na ikakasal ka na sa pinsan ni Chifuyu but.. of course, you are Izana Kurokawa. You are trying your best to cancel that shitty decision. Inilalaban mo ako. Inilalaban mo tayo. Instead of feeling hopeless, i decided to stay with you. I decided to fight for this relationship kahit na unti unti kong nararamdaman na nawawala ka na. You are slipping in my hands, mahal. Pero hanggat kaya ko, hinahawakan pa rin kita.
